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Thursday, April 30, 2009
love,
i know i've been harsh on u these few days and im sorry:( migraine feels so bad that i wish u have one.haha...its just that i feel uncomfortable with everything surround me.i even think of a break up and i dont want that.really la pantat!.im lucky to have u like u said which u just take me as some stupid makcik bedah kinda of girl who talk nonsense when im sick but still u think me like makcik even when im not sick..babi tol!.b,im sorry tau...i really am..
i didn't attend school again today coz i had a hard time sleeping yesterday night and today morning my head hurts alot la siol!text miss may to ask if is it ok if i gave my MC and a parents letter but she told me to go to the doctor as she scared i kena FLU BABI!..babi tol!!beruang baldi tol!.but i didn't go to the poly coz nobody accompany me and boyfie sleep the whole afternoon!!!bingit seyy ngan tu anak!!!!at the same time I'm missing him badly:(
boyfie woke up at 2 and he call me and i step majok la kan..nk kene ade sikit wayang la kate kn...hahaha...but really,I'm feeling soo lonely when he isn't there with me and i have to one to talk to..i though of calling zack but think again,he's in school..he wont have time for me:( i want to call sofie,but she might be working,so I'm left all alone..
we were on the fone but wasn't talking so it really piss me off la kn..i told him to hang up and HE DID!!!!lagi bingit!!!sontol royo btol ar dektu!!!i start crying and text him at the same tym and he called me..and he pujok me la..pastu start alik perangai dier..sudah la!!aku pon malas nk main wayang ngan ko..perangai kau pon da mcm wayang pekji!!hmmphh!!!!
boyfie seem to upset me..he seem so relax that im so sick right now and for 2 days we don't talk on the fone till late night.this is what i fear..fear of repeating the same hurt and sorrow history of relationship..and when he's asleep,I've no one to talk to or to share what's inside me and it really kills to keep everything to urself.sometimes i feel that is he serious in going into this relationship together with me or is he fooling around?:'( and at the same time,i feel bad myself coz when my migraine's acting up,i would scold everyone who irritated me.especially boyfie when he's done nothing wrong..sorry love:( hypertension+migraine?wtf?!rabak sioll!!!
few minutes ago i text boyfie some harsh words and i just ask him to shut the fuck up!!!...im so sorry dear..i didnt mean to='(
&im sorry too hanis..i didnt mean for those harsh words..
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
&btw,
i dont have a perfect life....dont judge me.thankiu(:
i didnt attend school today!YEAH=)
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
korea songs...bro been listening to it all day long which make me addicted to it.nice!
HAHAHA!!!
yesterday night talk with ibu.
ibu ask me if i've taken my medicine or not and as usual,i lied but this this ibu said...''its up to u la fizaa,i know u've been lying''..i was like''ehh mak ni..mane ade..'' & ibu start the conversation....
ibu:do you know we live in this world for just a moment?
me:mesti la tau...
ibu:den?dont u know how to take good care of urself?
me:(keep silent)
me:what if u dont get to see me married?
me:what if i didnt get to study till the top?
me:what if i die tonight?
ibu:haizzz....dont think to much la..its all in allah hands.
tears fall down in both of our eyes..i feel different talking to ibu bout this kinda stuff=(
sometimes i just wonder how long will i live?told boyfie bout this and all he do is keep quite and i know he's crying inside..i'll take good care of myself..i promise=(
Monday, April 27, 2009
school was ok except that i was down with headache in the afternoon during miss may internet fundamentals lesson..so leave school early coz boyfie fetch me from school..slack with boyfie under my void deck for a few minutes den head home coz my head were aching rabak seyy..anyway,overall its a boring day for me la..&i met zakiah in school today(:
chalos:)
Sunday, April 26, 2009
today.
HAPPY 22TH BIRTHDAY LOVE.
i love you soo much dear.!
(:
saturday.
yesterday was super gerek la seyy!!ibu wake me up at 7am and i wake boyfie before going back to sleep coz boyfie will fetch me and it takes some times for him to get ready.was halfway through.hanis text..she said she's coming along with me..ok la..sembarang la..boyfie reach at 8.30am.bus 65 to tampines inter,had MacDornarlds for breakfast and guess what?boyfie buy me hotcakes!!yeah!!!HAPPY GILER!!!thankiu love!=D later hanis den arrived and had her breakfast,after that bus 291 to kude kepang show at tampines blk 325..boyfie were suppose to be perform his kude perang and mabok but something corrupt so he didn't performed..alaaa =(
anyway,there's 3 group combine.im not too sure bout the other 2 but i know boyfie's in PUSPA SARI oi oi oi!!=) &i had double cheeseburger for lunch and apple pie for dinner..heee=D
mabok.
birthday girl in brown.
friday.was out wif love and hanis.we want to pasir ris beach for a small picnic..its a boring one for me la..3 persons only..mane ade gerek seyy!!slack till 6pm than bus 21 to drop hanis then me and boyfie head home.
putting on mascara.hee=D
Friday, April 24, 2009
IF ONLY.......................................THAT WOULD BE NICE(:
[] ibu stop buying supplements and start giving me more pocket money.
[] my school time-table have only a 1 day study day in a week.
[] i had a beautiful hair like Angelina Jolie.
[] i can throw all my clothes in the cupboard and bought a new sets of clothes.
[] boyfie stop dressing up like a matrep.hahaha
[] my birthday were to fall tomorrow..............so i can show off to rena and sok ling when going shisha.
[] i can fly and peep at boyfie when he's sleeping like a baboon.Kong3!
[] miss may start talking proper English.
[] Eugene had a better hair style and stand up straight.
[] i have a small version of boyfie where i can him keep in my pocket.
[] i have my exam answer key.
[] i were 24 yr old now,get married and have a baby(:
[] i have a million $$ in my pocket.
[] i have a chair that can move around the house easily..(aku ni pemalas..haha)
[] i have a grandparents:(
[] Singapore would to have snow...wow!!
[] i have a smaller size body.
what if I'm gone from this world?i know rena will miss me...aww~~i love rena to the core seyy!!!
[RENA]-yo fucker!!if u're reading this,i know u feel touch right?right?right?
HAHAHAHAHA!!!KONG3!!=P
Thursday, April 23, 2009
love love love.
bus 65 to kallang to meet boyfie then bus 133 to beach road and thought of having steak for lunch but i had chicken chop instead...syiokk!!!=) talk a stroll along kallang river side and slack.stress seyy ngan tu anak..syg pnye pasal ehh...tkpe la..i'll still love you no matter what dear.
(dier nye black pepper sause..waduh!!!SEDAP!!)
that's all folks...gonna get some sleep(:
ayah called and said,
I LOVE YOU DARLING!!
hahahahaha...cute la ayah aku satu ni...peyot da la boncet..dalam bnyk taik jek...haha..
&right now im feeling very very very vey HUNGRY!!!
i want McDornalds pancakes,apple pie and its long lost porridge!!!slurpp!!!
haven't sleep since last night...boyfie make me feel so restless that make me feel like giving up on our relationship and i NEVER want that to happen and even if it do,he cant blame me..he started all this=( i don't want to blog it here anyway...haixx....
& NOW!!!boyfie should already be here,right beside me but call nenek and she said sulaiman's still sleeping -_____- so i can only wait for him to wake up lor...brape lamer sak nk tunggu?!!?!?
anyway,yesterday night,i tidy up my cupboard and found lots and i means real LOTS of stuff in memories of me &firdaus..haizz....come to think again,he's someone that i really love and he just didn't appreciate me and along our 1yr 7 months,i feel hurts...i look at the poem he wrote,the promises he made,his faithfulness,.....CRAP!!!!!!my mistake in my previous relationship is that i love him too much......his sweet talk....damn!!i just feel like crying now...but whatever it is...I'll never hate him...he shall just stay as memories&history in me..
saw some stuff when im with sue...hahaha
sue:meet up someday ok?aku nak tunjok barang2 kite dulu...kekek la siol..confirm ketawe smpai taik terceceh seyy...hahahaha:)
& check this out!perangai wayang pekji seyy...hahaha=)
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
just got back from meeting my love..he came over my area and accompany to the CC coz i thought of printing out my bursary application form as home printer have run out of ink..but didn't manage to coz teacher said i can only apply it in school...there goes my $1.5o of using 30mins for nothing -_-
along our way for dinner,meet my uncle Y,and he's the 1st uncle to meet my boyfie=) soon gonna be my aunt,1st bro,ayah and maybe ibu...hehe..
slack at 600+ and gosh..my body ain't feeling good..heart really ache and stomach cramp..musibot tol!!1st thing i reach home,dash to the toilet and i vomit everything out...ibu told me to go to the doctor instead of school tomorrow...easilly ran out of breath...da mcm separuh nazak seyyy=(
P.S love,sometimes i see you in different angle..sometimes you don't seem to be my boyfie..sometimes you keep mum to yourself which me feel lost connection between you and me.sometimes i find you weird...sometimes i find you cute...sometimes i find you mcm matrep that i ANTI!!...&at times i know that you are my love...but why must the 'sometime' be always?
MCM SKODENG GITU LUHH.....
da pkai kain,pastu main bola..bodoh!
da kencing,tknk alik..muke mcm sipot mariam!
bapok mama pundek!
CRAVING........
for swensen breaded chicken and roti kirai wak din...
when i start craving for something,i will usually ask boyfie or ibu for it...and when i get it..i wont finish it up..and it happen few times now which make boyfie and ibu to said the same thing 'kau tak pernah habiz mkn..kate mengidam abeh bile da kasi tknk makan...kau ni semangat 2minit maggi ar'...hahaha!!..specially boyfie,when he start to open his mouth to lecture,I'll start to act as if im sleeping.hehe
anyway,skip school today coz my chest have been giving problem lately...text ibu and ayah to inform them that my heart ache like nk mampos then they said its better to stay at home than school...so here i am lor..blogging...happily...while my friends in school study crap and look at mr thomas face(i have no idea how he look like..maybe bald?fat?tall?short?ugly?old?hee...)
boyfie just text and he's on his way to court and im abit worried for him..i hope they wont anyhow charge him ar..kadang judge ni perangai ade sikit mcm pak kun tek..
SHOPPING LIST(PENDING WHILE WAITING FOR AYAH PAY DAY!HAHA)
[] shoes
[] bag
[] dress
[] jeans
[] new watch
[] wallet
[] contact lenses
[] laptop (please ayah.......)
&maybe bought myself a new boyfriend? hahahahaha...nah...TAK PERLU SEYY!!!mataer aku tk seret muke aku kt tanah da cukop bagos...kong3!!=D
WHEN I GROW UP......
<3 what will i be?teacher?doctor?lawyer?haha
<3 when will i get marry?
<3 who will i be married to?
<3 how many children will i have?
<3 is giving birth pain in the ass?:S
<3 will i irritate my husband by making him go to johor for the best KEROPOK LEKO?haha
<3 what house will i be staying in?
<3 will i ''click'' with my in-laws?
<3 can i cook for my family?...maggi boleh ar..
<3 will i still remember all my irritating yet lovely friends?
<3 will rena still call me''eh fucker!''?
<3 will ain call me ''eh minah rep''?(well,im not seyy)
<3 will i be driving a car or maybe juat a lorry?
<3 can i work when i become a mother and a wife?
<3 will zack still remember me said...''eh fiza....adik hafiy....''?
<3 will i wet my bed and shout ''ibu!!terkencing!! or ''hubby!!terkencing!!''?
& how long shall i live?
but on a second thought,i see have a long way to go...heee=)
ultraman&gozilla x-P
gosh!yesterday sleep was damn good seyy...was down with flu,ate my medicine and was on the fone with love.there's abit of emotional feeling going on in me which cause me and boyfie to have a serious talk and half way through the talk,i fell asleep...because before i know it,i was awake around 4am and saw my hp conversation with boyfie is already hung up.hahaha...WOOOOO.....klau da start gadoh ngan ni matrep,da mcm perang ngan gozilla seyy!!hahaha.
just when will you start putting your trust on me?i know i have alot of boy friends but you are my love.dont you see the different?
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
I love the way you say I love you,
And the way you stare.
I love the way you call me baby,
And the way you play with my hair.
i love the way you try so hard,
To always keep me happy.
I love the way you express your feelings,
And never make it too sappy.
I love it when you hold me,
As we lay together.
I love everything about you,
And I want to be with you.
I love you, you're my one and only
I may not show it in the best way
But I really do love you
And that's all I have to say :)
love, fizaa
Didnt attend school for today...raining early in the morning...wahlau...syiok giler tido!!call boyfie and told him that im not going to school and boyfie says 'OK!'.HAHAHAHA!!rilek jek ni anak satu ni...hahaha....meet boyfie,bus 65 to bugis,survey for my new shoes(so DM won't sound me again for wearing slippers.hee) and bag=) meet sofie up in the area and bus 23 to tampines Temasek poly for dinner....syiok seyy makan dier.!!slurp!=)
today boyfie perangai setan seyy...hahaha..bully me all the way...kiteorg da mcm anak kurang kasih syg seyy..haha..badak kepale tupai tol..heehee..after dinner,meet haziq(sofie bf) at the bustop,so me n boyfie head home while the other couples head down to tampines 1,i guess..
&OH YEA!!~~haffiq called me today!!my long,dearest and beloved buddy since primary school..
haffiq:oi fiza!!ko ngan matrep mane seyy?haha
me:huh?mane seyy ko?tk nmpk pon?
haffiq:dlm bus la..ko nak gi ane?
me:ouh..haha...nk gi bugis la..
haffiq:oh..oit!!sape matrep tu?!!
me:PANTAT!!mataer aku la!!dier memang matrep!asal?
haffiq:siak ar ko!!mataer ko ok ar?
me:alhadullillah...bleh la tahan...(dlam hati..babi ko!!panggil mataer aku mat rep!)haha
haffiq:hahaha...yela2...tc la..pape picit k?bye!!
awww~~~miss him alot seyyyy!!!!!!!=(
well,
THAT'S ALL FOR TODAY!!=)
Monday, April 20, 2009
MENDAK SIOLZZZZ!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS LA SEYY!!!I WANNA GO HOME!!!!!!!
CIKGU MCM BERUANG TANAH!!!
&FUCK LAA!!!KENA CAUGHT BY DM COZ I WEAR SLIPPERS TO SCHOOL...MY BONE STICKING OUT OK?!?!?!!
oh oh!!as usual,i didn't attend my morning class...pity rena coz she was the one who wake me up and i end up sleeping after putting down the fone.
rena:eh fucker!wake up la!going morning class?
me: uh......what?....
rena:eh...go lehx...
me:uh....kk......go....go......
rena:makesure go ok.....
me:uh....ok......
(hang up) and back to sleep....HAHAHAHAH!!!and now its raining heavily outside and i feel like sleeping the whole afternoon and not going to school for today...shiok laa!very cold!!=) gonna get back to sleep and woke up in 2 hrs.heee...next class start at 1 la beb....
religion class cancel coz our car's still at the workshop and only yesterday ayah went to claim it.so meet hanis at her home,slack there for 3 -4 hours before meeting boyfie..boyfie came over in the evening and i was craving for rojak char kway..hahaha...so boyfie and i search the whole tampines for the best rojak.hahaha...
Saturday, April 18, 2009
sometimes i wonder,am i a good friend or a bad one?
i've been helping my friend for the past few days and i dont have the confident in me.will she remember what i've done for her or will she ditch me again?boyfie start to lecture me bout all this which keeps me thinking all day long and it really bother me,u see..and her ibu called me earlier and ask me to keep her daughter company tomorrow afternoon at home coz she wont be at home.&yea,i agreed to it..i shall keep her accompany like i told her,''i'll stand by you when you need me.''...im just doing my part as a friend to a friend that i love.
BACK AGAIN!!=)
alright now!i know i haven't been blogging for 1 week or more due to my busy days..wahlau..so busy!!cannot tahan!!so where should i start?maybe the day when i go out wif sue on the 10 of april.(friday,3 days before school reopen)slack wif her catch up with the past and too bad dorina cant make it or it would be much fun!the more the merrier mah..heee=)
saturday.
accompany boyfie for his interview as a model...cheyyy!!!model kepe~!!hmmmph!!!hahhahaa....at dhoby ghaut.after that walk around in town=)
model tak menjadi.kong3!!=)
sunday.
SENTOSA!!!!
with boyfie,aht and sherel?(i guess?not sure bout her name.)heee...bus 65 to kallang bahru,meet boyfie and saw DSP putting up their show at boyfie blok..TERKEJOT SIOL!!..den bus 13 to kallang mrt station and meet up aht n sherel..train to harbourfront,have lunch,slack and cab to mount faber,cable car and down to sentosa.
my dailies.
haven't been going to school since school reopen.hahaha...problem problem problem!!few days since 13 april,i've been spending my time with love and my friend,hanis...so much of spending time in solving our problem that my body felt cramp all over=( problem which involve my parents,her parents and her bf parents..kecoh kepe?...since then,i've been home late night and boyfie face shows that he's tired but not complaining to me...cian nye mataer aku=( went to school ONLY on thursday and i tell you.....WOOOOOO!!!!~~bnyk nye jantan!!hahaha...meet bro and his friend n school,azrul and the gang,shahrin(my ex),din cine and some of them i dont even know..hahaha...after school boyfie bring me meet his son..cute seyyy!!!anak aku la tu!!!kong3!!!=)
eh eh...bushuk la muke boboi cry..
mentel eh..mcm daddy kau jgk.hee=)
yesterday.
as usual,friday no school...so meet up boyfie then bus 21 to tampines,meet up sofie and walk under the hot sun till we reach the salon coz sofie says she wants her hair to be trim but she change her mind just as we reach there..fickle minded sia!..continue walking to tampines 1 then to TM,next to century square and meet up hanis..lunch at CS food court,so kecoh while eating...disturb sofie bout her mistake when she wants to said 'paitao',...she said,'piatao'...HAHAHAHA!!KONG3!!! SOFIE BELOO!!!=P
after lunch slack at 200++ and i play haziq PSP and i score a goal ar!!!sofie tk tau main!!!bueekkk!!!!hahahaha..acik(boyfie handsome bro.haha) came over for a cigarettes.slack till 6 and head to the interchange to meet haziq(sofie bf)..left me,boyfie n hanis,so we slack near her house,at 800+ till 8pm and head back home.
Hanis.
Friday, April 10, 2009
cant get to back sleep when im already asleep coz boyfie text n said he's nt feeling well and tat make me worried bout him la..(tu la..DEGIL kann!!!da sakit pon nak keluar!batu besar ada ddk atas kepala!)
gonna wait till he's safely home...baik pe fizaa!!!hahhaa=)
anyway,tmr will be meeting my sweetest bitch of all!!!SUHAILA!!!wEeHoO!!!
=)
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
LOVE.
Spent half of my day wif love and sis at home,playing UNO and we watch the slumdog millionaire=)
boyfie and sis are really getting along real good and the even gang up in our UNO game and make me take 18 draws!!NO FAIR SEYY KORG!!!alaa,just a game -_-
the other half of my day were spent wif love.weehooO!!!=)
bus 65 to vivo city and slack there all the way but it wasnt a boring one for me cause we spent talking bout life,love and ourself.heee..and boyfie bought me something that really make me soo over the mood!!~~~~ CHOCOLATE LA SEYYYY!!!!!..............thankiu bushuk!=)
eh eh si mentel ni!hee=P
i had fun today dear! ILY!<3