i was out with boyf at bugis to survey our new slippers cause he'll be getting his GST while im getting my pay very soon=) we thought of getting the same pair of Nike slippers which he like it very much but i prefer the pink one but still i think I'm getting the white same as his=) head back kallang to leny place and slack there.i was having headache so i take a 2 hour nap and when i woke up i found boyf next to me..ni anak pon join sekaki..leny mak angkat came over to slack,smoke and drink..gerek la oi!!=P but boyf and me don't drink cause he'll be sending me back home and we don't want the smell on us..kite jadi good boy and girl la.wEeE~~ leave leny place at 7 and its raining drizzling,sejuk la oi..reach my around 8,slack for a while and boyf felt bored mcm nak mampos and so i became his victim.he took out my eyeliner and drew my lower back & behind my neck.angkong kate kn..HAHAHAHA!!!

while blogging aht chat and ask me to look at 2 videos that he've uploaded and when i listen to it,my hearts cry..i dont know why but i keep thinking of my sorrow life.its not that i want to think about it,but it just came straight in :'( im not hoping for karma.

aniway,im missing someone right now, at this very moment!!!

HIM!!!!

i love you baby!

today.

im not feeling good today..im suppose to go to school for my make up lesson but my body's aching from all the works that i've been doing these few days..im going over to kallang just to slack there with boyf and the gang=)

yesterday.

its my last day of work.gyeah!!after i get my pay can hooray hooray already!!=) yesterday i wasnt feeling well and i find my day very lousy..i can hardly breath when i first came then headache strikes!!mak datok!!rabak kepe?!?i keep having my breaks and i keep drinking sour plum.. at 5 plus,boyf came over to fetch me then abg zai,abg adam and iman came,we went for a drink at the $1.80 chicken rice stall,they were cracking stupid and funny jokes which make me and boyf laugh our head off..hahaha...we smoke a stick before going our separate ways..bus 65,slack around my area and head home.

i'll be missing abg zai, abg adam, iman, abg wan & abg man.

saturday.

yesterday.

how long can i go?

i've been feeling weirdly these few days.it started since i met kak wati and my eyes keep twitching.last week i guess,i dream that im being killed.On sunday,i dream that someone told boyf to leave me over some reasons which i cant remember it and two days ago,den told me that he dream that i commit suicide and back at home that day,lil sis said that she dream that i was away leaving my family behind to a holy place and im wearing white.so what's all this?on that day itself,boyf start to said how my he love me and how scared he is if i were to leave him behind..i was thinking,is this a bad omen for me?is there something over all this nightmare which i would start crying as soon as i woke up from my sleep?i cant stop crying just thinking of it.

&

i love family.

i love boyf.

i love friends.

i love nur hanis.

i love kak wati.

& i love myself.

:')

ohh!!what a boring holidays!~~

today.

i've just woke up and i know its already afternoon.ITS RAINING oi!!!!lagi syiok sak aku tido!!!hahahha!!!i don't have plans today&im missing boyf!!

&readers,if u have a job,pls tag me ok?*wink wink*

yesterday.

just slack at leny house till night.acik bring along his new girl i guess,indah&there was mai,mama and her children,me&boyf lastly,leny while abg man's working.

I'm sorry love, for making you cry.i know you love me so much as i do but i swear I've no intention of hurting you=(

&I'm sad that kak wati's sick right now!!get well soon kakak *kiss kakak*

monday.

was supposedly to do my school project but was postpone to other days cause i followed to groom&bride to other relatives houses.

im super duper tired today!!sleepy eyes and i cant wait to get in bed.



ATLAST! ATLAST! ATLAST!=DD





meet boyf at tamp.window shopping in century square,next stop to Tampines Mall & lastly to Tampines 1..we then slowly make our way to boyf blok and meet acik.slack,talk crap till evening and boyf send me home(:



THE TRUTH.


saturday.

i won't stop loving you till our times runs out<3

gyeah!holidays here!!yeah yeah!!=))

HOLIDAYS YEAH BEHBEYY!!WEEHoO!!!!~~

today.

today school's soo boring la seyy...only 9 student including me attend lesson today.went for lifeskills lesson to discuss bout our project but ain and the rest of my group member's not here.besarkn pantat je kt umah.haha..lunch with rena,anni,mon hteh and 'bobby'(yong ting),after lunch slack in miss ruhaizah class room till 3pm and now im need to do miss may dreamwaver thingy and i know nothing about it.after school im going kallang for fishing session with boyf i guess.

wednesday.

skip school on wednesday.boyf came over in the morning and ayah got home from work cause he's still not feeling well.bus 65 to tampines and slack with acik(boyf bro) till 4pm and train to orchard,hyatt hotel for boyf and acik job interview.bus 65 to kallang and acik back to tamp.to boyf house and leave at 9pm and head home.

my holidays coming soon and i want to spend it with love & friends!!

I SWEAR I LOVE YOU!

school ain't gonna be ok if there's a monster which i had enough of her already!what kind of teacher is she?so much of her attitude problem!maybe she thinks that giving attitude problem to student is like disciplining them like back in her country.fcuk la!!&i hope mon htet did not bastard us like how we imagine.or else,i shall send her back to her country and let her brush the cow teeth.



IS THIS A TEST THAT I HAVE TO GO THROUGH IN LIFE?

im so fucking stress with everything surround me.e.g. family,boyf,school,money issue&myself..ayah's at home sick,high fever and im afraid it effects his heart when he got to know bout my school thingy.boyf make things difficult for me as if i feels there's no connection between us when he said,'honey,love you!'..i just feels that it doesn't come from his heart.money?i need to pay my last bills by next week and start paying my 'hutang'..and myself?im having back my old illness and i have to bear the pain cause i dont wish to go to the hospital and waste money.yesterday,a sleepless night for me la seyy..keep thinking and i cry to my sleep.&also my class teacher been waiting for me to fcuk her upside down then she'll keep her mouth shut!irritating Myanmar!!enough already with school thingy!

boyf,
why do i feel everything seem to change soo much?where do i go wrong in this relationship of ours?tell me!..you seem to be a different guy that i love.you are no more the guy that use to pamper me even on the fone,now everything i do seem so wrong in your eyes.i cant touch you whenever i like now,i cant pamper with you like i use to,i cant crack jokes just to make us both laugh till our eyes tears.NO MORE!but why everything change?sometimes i feel that you are force into saying 'i love you'.but why this stupid sudden feeling appear in me all bout you.am i not the girl that you love now?or have i change?but in what way?is this how all guy attitude towards a girl?they'll give a girl all their attention and care when they've yet to get the girl and change just as the get what they want.if you were to read my post,i hope you do abit of thinking ok?i dont wish to go on crying behind you back:'(

&i love you more today<3

today,i went for my morning class and meet boyf after lunch.boyf fetch me after his interview.we went to hospital just as i got to know hanis was warded.got home and change,bus 65 to hospital but H1N1's so kecoh so me and boyf kena halau from there and we pass the visiting hours :x

sunday.

was awake my ibu.need to go to the wedding ceremony.get ready and head to seng kang.had nasi minyak for breakfast.what a heavy breakfast i had.hee..slack with all the makcikz&pakcikz,talk with the DJ,watch the kompang and dance,lunch and head home.back at home,bath,change and meet boyf at kallang for fishing session but it was raining.so we just slack.

ayah still dont talk cause i dont stay at the ceremony till it ended.

&oh yea!!HOT NEWZZZ!!!
was lepak-ing with boyf and farhan,when he said that he've just broken up after 3 yrs of relationship.i was like what a waste!!??!(klau aku,da bawak smpai kawin seyy!!!hee(:)ok now,lets continue.....han ask me where do i stay and do i know a girl by the name of katty or dee?real name katdijah(i guess thats the spelling) 1st in my mind,i hope not that bitch who spoilt my relationship with my ex..
and so i ask,"is she dark solid black,skinny bastard and have no boobs?"
han :ermm,i'll show u her pic laa..
after looking.....
me:DA CONFIRM!!!NI POMPAN SIAL AR!!!!BABI DIER!?!?!MCM ANE LEH JDI KO PEH POMPAN SEYY!?!?
han:i know she's a bitch..but i dont know what attract me in her.
me:bodoh sak!bukan nye ade tetek seeyy!

so i start my story how i began to hate her till now.seriously she's a fucking BITCH!!!bodoh peh KICAP HITAM!!!

darah naik till the top joy...

i dont know her name.hee:P

today.

woke up at 8am today although i slept at 6am cause was otf with man.help ibu with the chores and i settle my siblings lunch as ibu was out with dad to wedding invitation.was out in the evening with family to ayah cousins wedding but me and sis take our leave after sitting there for an hour without eating.pathetic seyy!!

yesterday.

today.

my class start at 12 and i just woke up..too tired from waiting boyf to get home but i dose off..hee..lembab ar dektu alik..puas hati aku tido..kong3!!anyway,i've been thinking lately..my stomach problem acting up recently.&im worried bout boyf coz his upper back is swollen for few days now=( &im saving every cents for my bills and hope to go for my checkup without parents knowing..haizzz...strees siool!!!!

yesterday.

today school as per normal la..

at 1 plus am,shahrin,my ex text me..he ask for our old photo and i ask him,why does he need it for?he said for memories...WTF!?!?!MEPEK JEEKK!!hmmph!!..let me just said something ok?anybody who intend to leave/bastard me,pls do so coz i know one day,u'll be coming back to me.I treat someone with love,care and respect.see for who i am and stop misjudging me.