at 7 plus,i was awake when ibu said that 1 of my grandaunt had just pass away. i was so shocked at that moment and i wish boyf's with me to hold me tight. i didn't get to see her face and my family can't even see her body cause she's back in her kampong in kedah,somewhere in malaysia. ='( i get emotional when any of my grandaunt pass away cause I've loss mine since young. i didn't even get to see my nenek face.both from ibu and ayah side.i didn't get any love from my nenek.and now i took every old grandmother as my own.cause i know each and every Muslim in this world is a family. *sob sob*

next,ibu told me that H1N1 had effect my aunt whole family member. i advice my aunt to go to the hospital but she insist on staying at home. i cant bear to see any of my love ones go one by one. :''(

then ibu start crying and scold me for not eating my medicine. i was like WTH?!why is she yelling like nobody business? everyone's in no mood and i was sitting by the side thinking of my grandaunt of how she look the last time i saw her,and here ibu is yelling away. I've no mood to listen to her unstoppable nagging.

haizz...i cant believe that she's gone. at this moment i keep thinking of my nenek and grandaunt. i'll miss them and i will always do.