sorry.too wordy.

ibu told me bout cousin condition! i cant stop crying. he cant eat or drink, whats more talking. its a pity to see him like this. he keep vomiting out blood and i couldn't imagine how pain it was. ibu also told me that cousin keep throwing tantrum,well maybe he have wire and tubes all around his body and he cant move about and also he cant eat or drink. we kept crying hearing about his condition and we're hoping that he had a fast recovery :'( & i cried reading fadli(aht) blog..i can feel how he cope the pain of losing a grandfather, a mother in a critical condition, a father not in good health but fadli was strong..i envy seeing him.. org kate, ''badan kecik,jiwa kekuatan dan iman itu kuat.'' i cried so much that it remind me of atok and nenek.. it remind of how ayah go on with life when he just had his heart operated,how we family stay strong together through thick and thin:''( and how i fight myself with my illness for this 5 damn years! medicine non stop. up and down to see the doctors, appointment letters filling up my cupboard, needles here and there but i believe this is life and we have to be strong. therefor i wanna be there for him or she,whoever need someone to share their pain,i dont mind.. and fadli's the one i wanna be with..somehow i know he's somewhere in my heart which make me care for him still. he was there whenever i was down,and mayb its my turn now.insyaállah.

im missing the ppl close to my heart soo much that im tears!!
:''(