2 days of not updating. and partly its because i wasn't in the mood and its been a tough ride for me. lets start with today and followed by the last 2 days:)

well of course, went to school as per normal. school started at 8am but me and rena reach around 8.30am!! but there's much to do in school laa.. really..i mean, we just sit in front of our PC,Fb-ing,blogging and talk cork. the same things happen almost everyday and with only less than 10 student turn up for class..well,that's how pathetic my class is.hahaha

school end at 10.30am bus home together with rena. back at home, turn on my PC again, cause 1st and 2nd bro was still sleeping like a log!!! so it doesnt make any diff when i said im alone at home.

& actual planning was meeting up with mimi to slack at ECP but it was cancel cause its raining cats and dogs. and the scary lighting and thunder really makes me think that i should really stay at home tonight.hehe.

Thursday.

went out with my princess, hanis and rena..wEeEeE~~~!! i like!!window shopping at parkway parade, and i dont want to said the worst thing tat happen on tat day laa...it really piss me off!! back to my princess, we send her off at simei around 5 plus,bus to tamp to slack with hanis and rena start her stupid crap about the ''SENIOR COUNSELOR'' thingy.hahahahaha!!!! next stop was rena place,we slack at reservoir,den azrul and his friend came over to join us and unexpectedly fahmi(cousin) was there to. so we all slack together..haha.. i make my way home at 10pm.  kk done!!


wednesday.

after school, went over hanis place to meet her aunt..which was last seen by me when i was primary 5!!!hahahaa!!!memories oii!!=) and now her aunt is married with a son...cute nyee yacoob!!(its that the correct spelling?) took a stroll in the park with hanis sibiling and myself together with yacoob=)






morning readers!
just woke up from my sleep.*muke bushuk* anyway, rena text me this morning when i was still in bed. my body's aching and my heart's still pumping uncomfortably. well actually yesterday night i went to bed at 8pm,early right? yea! tats because im too tired. but i woke up at 11 plus to get myself a drink and i have this bad feelings,u see.. my chest start to ache and my hearts feels so pain. i cant breaths and i cant talk. i wanted to call for ibu and ayah but im worried they might get worried about me. i try waking lil sis up but she sleeps like a pig. even the worst earthquake wont wake her up.

knowing that my heart wasn't 'functioning' properly, i wake in the kitchen to see if i could find any medicine so i can stop the pain, but too bad, i had NONE!:(  i put myself in bed,praying,wake me up the next morning,ya allah :(

well, we never went are we 'going' right? just pray lor..

alright now, gonna get back to sleep.
update soon!

xoxo.

monday, the 1st day of a week. school started at 8am today but me and rena purposely came late by few minutes but still we're so called the 1st exclude eugene.hehe.. went for a puff the moment azrul reach the school*wink* back in class,heard the indian talk crap about his subject and stuff,later when i feel like vomiting and yes i did ok! due to giddiness. actually i cant stand his class laa..the way he talk really give me headache laa..aiyoo!! break at 12,skali kene sound by a big black singh for not wearing our lanyard.mcm bodoh luh seyy..they said its for our safety?wtf?what if someone pull it by my neck?bodoh kn?.. then azrul came over and ask me to accomapy him to the bank but plan was change cause his friends keep on psycho him to go home..haha..at last decision was made, all of us went home.*rena was like fucking mad.haha..sorry beb*

walk to payar lebah with his gang, me and azrul bus 28 to bedok inter, lunch at KFC and make our way home before our meeting at 4pm for a jog in the reservoir=)

reach home,bath and off to meet azrul,and yeah! we jog 1 whole round around the reservoir..azrul complete it in 45mins and me in 1HR!!!!hahahahaha!!!but hey!that was my 1st time seyy to complete it that fast!!!hahah..thnx to azrul!he trained me so i can get back my shape.hurhur!

thats all folks!
gonna rest!
chalos!

xoxo.



ola ola!
currently me doing my school project. im only half way done with mr prata project and still a long way to go with miss may project. aiyoo! and i need to sumbit it tmw. where got time..jgn mcm bodoh ar!! haissshh!!

anyway, its sunday and i start off going for my religion class and today im going sgh to visit my mak long. i hope she stay strong and overcome all this. aunt sam and others coming over my house for gathering. and boyf's out somewhere in kallang,fishing with his friends-_- boriiiiiiiiing!!!

here's what i've been doing when boredom strikes. i love anything that have got to do with photo shoots. i've been offered quite a few time of becoming a models but hell no! boyf and ibu wont let me :''( sometimes its not the body they're looking for but the face,the pure smile and a nice complexion*wink* cant imagine if i were to be a model...*evil laugh*

check this out!=)







im SORRY!:''(


I wont forgive myself if u would leave just like that. i neglet you even when i know that you've been push to the hospital and ibu ayah told me to pay a visit but knowing that im having problem in my relationship, i forget about family matter that surrounds me and even u:( and i know i was wrong and IM SORRY.


today ibu reach home from sgh,visit mak long, she came home crying telling me bout mak long condition. i burst into tears knowing that she in a bad shape. her cancer seem to have spread:'( doctors said that she have only 4mths to survive!!WTF?!!? please dont go! im SORRY for not listening to ur advises. im SORRY for skipping your quran lesson. im SORRY for giving you that face. im SORRY for EVERY SINS that i've done.




yesterday bowling at tampines safra, after bowling bus 65 to bugis,dinner at tong seng and we went our seperate ways. me and boyf went over my place to slack while sofie and haziq to Fullerton. the end. short and sweet kn?



im having my class now and im damn sleepy-_- yesterday was otf with love till late night and i think i dose off half way.hehe..woke up at 6.15 am today and off to school. today lesson end at 11am. wEeEeEe~~!!

After school, will be meeting boyf and cousin together wif haziq for BOWLING!!wEeEhOo!!~~ :D

UPDATE AGAIN SOON!
gonna take a short nap for a while.hehe

chalos!

hello!=)

im back after missing in blogging for a week.hee! so much happen and i dont wish to say it here. let it be between me and allah:)

school's been open for two weeks but i've only been going for two days!hahaha.. my 1st day in school was on thursday(151009). everythings seem so sucks! was caught by DM for wearing slippers the 1st thing i step in the school gate,so name was taken -_- , class room aircon break down and there's only 3 fans in the room. mcm siak! and there's still a new timetable. lagi mcm siak! boleh botak sak kpale aku klau hari2 mcm gini!

2nd day of school was on monday(192009) went to school with rena. 1st lesson was ashish class,a tall,indian and a center parting hair man(belah pepek) haha.. after an 1hr break was miss MAY THET TIN, and just a
few minute i and my frens were called to see the section head! mcm siak!

yesterday was out with boyf and rena was still sick so we didnt attend school and same goes for today!!!HAHAHAAHAHAHA

CHALOS!!update again soon!

& i miss hanis,kak wati,fidaa and sue:)



i so bored at home. didnt attend school yesterday as i just got well from my fever. and i dont think im going to school again today coz me very lazy.hoho! & rena's away in hong kong and no one will accomany me for my smoking breaks:''( i miss rena already! i miss her crap and her stupid bloody face!!hahahaha

& last,
AKU NAK JMPE LAKI AKU LAA!!!
:'(

its been long since i last blog and tonight i feel like posting something out here as i felt so lonely right now with no one to talk to :'(

OH LOVE!

if you happen to read my post here. i really want you to know i really felt at this moment. ever since you stop your night work, u start drinking and been home late at night. i waited for you every night without fail just to makesure that u're home safely but since then i notice you stop everything u use to do with me. u seldom text or give me a call. u start giving me soo much excuses which i know sometimes its just a lie. in this way, u're hurting me:'(

 i even ask for a break up but i couldnt bare to. what will i answer to my parents?how bout our planning?gone just like that? even after we tried settling things out, u still act weird towards me and u make me feel rejected. this is not how i picture it.i dont want this kinda relationship cause it really sucks. sometime i really wonders, do you really love me? and do u ever know what's the meaning of LOVE?

where were you when im down with fever? i was left all alone to bare this pain and only tears was with me. what do you mean when u said that my love is too strong? does that mean u cant accept it? or u dont deserve? c'mon! u want me soo much that a friend give in to you and is this what i deserve?


 u've been changing soo much that u leave me confused in my position. asking myself, what should i do next? our relationship was once a complicated one, and once we share it to others, ppl just smile and said something for us to feel proud taht we make it this far but that's what they only see but have they see our fight? im only hoping for the best in us. but u keep making me tears and all i can do is to accept all this challange. i'm beganing to feel scared that u'll leave me 1 day.