its been long since i last blog and tonight i feel like posting something out here as i felt so lonely right now with no one to talk to :'(

OH LOVE!

if you happen to read my post here. i really want you to know i really felt at this moment. ever since you stop your night work, u start drinking and been home late at night. i waited for you every night without fail just to makesure that u're home safely but since then i notice you stop everything u use to do with me. u seldom text or give me a call. u start giving me soo much excuses which i know sometimes its just a lie. in this way, u're hurting me:'(

 i even ask for a break up but i couldnt bare to. what will i answer to my parents?how bout our planning?gone just like that? even after we tried settling things out, u still act weird towards me and u make me feel rejected. this is not how i picture it.i dont want this kinda relationship cause it really sucks. sometime i really wonders, do you really love me? and do u ever know what's the meaning of LOVE?

where were you when im down with fever? i was left all alone to bare this pain and only tears was with me. what do you mean when u said that my love is too strong? does that mean u cant accept it? or u dont deserve? c'mon! u want me soo much that a friend give in to you and is this what i deserve?


 u've been changing soo much that u leave me confused in my position. asking myself, what should i do next? our relationship was once a complicated one, and once we share it to others, ppl just smile and said something for us to feel proud taht we make it this far but that's what they only see but have they see our fight? im only hoping for the best in us. but u keep making me tears and all i can do is to accept all this challange. i'm beganing to feel scared that u'll leave me 1 day.