SENTOSA is somewhere i long wanted to go. a place to relax, smell the breeze, the soft sands, fantastic view, under the coconut tree, and a peaceful mind set. in your bikini set and shades.what more could u ask for? BUT bringing alongs somes wonderful friends will make it PERFECT! the voice of people laugher, joking and crap-ing*giggle*

next was BODY WORLD! gee! im getting excited just blogging about it.*grin* well, its something which i want to see it infront of my very own eyes. peeps just said that, ITS FUN LAA SEYY!! but wth? i'll never knew it until i find it out myself right? body world is an exhibition about body parts. They belonged to people who declared during their lifetime that their bodies should be made available after their deaths for the 
qualification of physicians and the instruction of laypersons. Many donors underscore that by donating their body, they want to be useful to others even after their death. Their selfless donations allow us to gain unique insights into human bodies, which have thus far been reserved for physicians at best. cool huh?*wink*
go and catch it people:)




i think i'll just spent my day doing my chorus and have my rest.. im getting better already:) have a nice sunday people!

xoxo


i'll update again soon yaww!
i hope this flu of mine will go away soon cause it irritated me alot!

goodnight readers!

xoxo

GOODBYE FRIDAY! HELOOOO SATURDAY!!!=DD


I missed blogging yesterday as i was busy the whole day with family and i was sick!=(
i go around rubbing my nose, sneezing, coughing, and feeling lousy. we went to mak long house 1st. mak long getting worse. it hurts me to see her in such condition. she no longer want to eat anything. all she do is blabber about something which never exist. haiz..get well soon!=(

next house was nek biah. ayam lemak chilli pada, sambal prawn, bagedel and serondeng for our dinner! =) wooshh!! sedap! she's the best cook and we never missed her house! NEVER! home sweet home at 7=)

boyf ends work at 9.30pm and i received a text msg from and it really pissed me off!!!! we had this stupid small fight over the phone and i was told that everything gotta change and i went, FUCK! what are you trying to said?!... there's nothing to fight about but c'mon i cant go on if ur 'brother' keep coming into our picture.urgh! i know how much u hate being control and since the day i knew u, i've NEVER EVER control ur life but instead i give you my understanding and support.

baby,
i know how much you really want this and im giving it to you. im not trying to give you pressure or stress but baby, we are in this together u see. it takes two hands to clap and i only want it between you and me baby. i'll respect any decision you make but at a point of time, me need to take my stand too dear. its not only about you. but about me,you and us. i woke up this morning and i receive your msg, i smile and said 'you're crazy baby'. and i gave you that morning call, in my sore voice, comforting you, telling you that everything's gonna be alright. i gave you my kisses through the phone, and u keep silence. i know karma is on our way but let just said its our fate and lets just go through this shit together. im yours to keep babylove.

OH I MISSED WEDNESDAY!=P


topics topics topics

Imagine how its feels like to be fuck up by your teacher for not attending school for 2 weeks and not doing class labs and right now my attendances have drop to 45%!!! urgh! rabak ke pe? and also i haven't been buying my school books!! haha.  oh well, i need to discipline myself, try to wake up early for school, avoid talking on the phone till late night and stop cabot my classes!!

supposedly, i WAS ABOUT to go for my afternoon class, miss may class but i have this very good friend la, her name is rena, she's the one who have been keeping me away from school.haha.. but seriously, if she didn't came up with the idea of going home, i'll be in class planning for our project. =P ohh well, i wasn't feeling that good anyway. nose block, sore throat, cough, flu and a slight fever=(

I PRAY HARD FOR THEM TO BE SAFE!

mak long's in a critical condition and we're trying our best to visit her often and just 2 days ago, her last son got into an accident and in ICU.. but im glad that he's not in coma and just today he've been discharge. fast huh?=) alhamdullilah la.. please watch over them ya allah.

ayah been smoking secretly and how i wish i could told him off! well, i did once and he promise to stop but he lied! i know its hard but he've gone a major operation before i dont wish him to suffer anymore. and ayah been complaining that his chest hurts recently. see! i told you!urgh! DEGIL!

havent heard from cousin and i hope he's doing fine. he's still waiting for his medical result. to check whether his cancer cells are totally gone or not cause his condition was in stage 4!

please Allah, keep them close to me.

Love


he's been busy working and i can only meet him 1 week once!=( and i miss him like crazy and im lovin it! i can see that he's trying to change but that doesnt mean that he wont change back to his old habit right? well, im sorry for my stupid ego. i shouldn't ask for a split and i apologies baby. i should have ask you rather then shooting my mouth off without knowing the true story. and im sorry for putting u in tears and i dont mean it baby =( i really love you and i want you to know that no one can replace u. <3



the end


ok go! im dont have aything to blabber about anymore and i'll just stop here ok?:)
goodnight readers!

xoxo

skip my morning class as im sending my ibu relatives to the airport cos they're going haji:( kinda sad but ohh well,   its a blessing:) meeting a friend in a few hours time and i cant wait!! weepee~!! :) boyf's working today and he only get his off on Wednesday or Thursday and im missing him like crazy:(

anyway, yesterday alisha came over and wee!! my princess's super cute!! I LIKE!:DD





hello saturday!!!

waking up late in this beautiful cold weather. ahhh... indah nye dunia.. :) thought of spending some quality time with my beloved family. lil sis's away from home. she have gone to cameron highland for her ncc thingy for 4 days and im missing her badly. i feel so lonely during the night. no one to talk to and really, there's no laughter and no one to bully. gosh! miss you la badak!:P and bros out to work and im all alone with ibu and ayah... boriiinng-_- supposedly alisha coming over but there's a change of plan. she's coming tomorrow and i cant wait!wEe~~!

anyway, i met rena and sok ling today. slack around my area. gosh! the last time i saw her was during sheesha session. smoke and talk cork are what we did today lor.. nothing much actually but at least i know, I DIDNT PAITAO OK!! hahah=))

& oh well, currently chatting with wak(wajdi) now. kecooh ar tu anak.. but i feel good la chatting with him. he's a good friend! syg kau la bodoh! cepat2 la ade mataer!:PP hm, ouh well, im feeling bored!! boyf out fishing with his friend and i dont think he wants to spent talking otf with me:( alaa... oh well, i'll text hanis perhaps?hee..

goodnight readers!
:)

xoxo

FIZA MIA?


ok go! for the past few days i havent been blogging as i've been busy with some stuff and havent been feeling well:( i've received my SSAS money and oh well, i didnt get to shop as there's no tomorrow cause ibu keep asking me for money and furthermore she haven't been giving me my daily pocket money and i've to fork out everything on my own:( etc ezlink, food and drink & cigarettes.

i also hevent been going to school for the whole week!! mati la saye :S i've been enjoying life like the world is MINE! all mine! i date with hanis, kak wati, and more friends! anyway, im glad that boyf and me are back to normal*wink* alhamdullilah. and also im happy that hanis problem's slowly coming to the end. 1 down and few more to go.

aiyaa.. i dunno where to start blogging actually *scratch head* just so you know that i've been busy enjoying meself till i neglect my studies and right now, my final year exam's waiting for me. oh no! me dont know anything. and just today, i met rena and borrow some book from the library about server thingy. me cracking me head to think how to help rena in this stupid big project!! urgh!

anyway, pic below was my date with kak wati :DD






yesterday school was ok. went for miss may class and SW next. i was not feeling good and i didn't get to do my gym! WASTED!! yesterday sw lesson look kinda fun. shall do it for my next class*wink* 
school end at 4.40pm, make my way home and went to fetch boyf. well, things aint going real well you see. back at home, body temperature's really hot! migraine and flu. urgh! me feeling sick!:( and mimi acompany me by the fone and he's nice laa. he's my bestie:)

& today i didnt attend school. fever and also stomach cramp!! urgh! me hate it when period's here and cramps strikes!!:'( ibu and lil sis's out and im all alone at home. bored and i really need to smoke!!! boyf's at work right now and there's no way he can contact me:( & im missing hanis and alisha alot!!!! :'( i wanna hug them!!

THAT FAKE SMILE.




school was ok today. didnt do my lab as usual and i have this feeling i'll have to retain in that stupid school for another 6 mths!! yucks! soo sucks!! ashish gave me his one kind of look that he's piss with me for now coming for his test and not coming to school for the whole week =P
well, school start at 8 and rena and myself went back home at around 11. haha.. back at home, i was not feeling well and yea, my body temperature was hot hot hot!:( took my nap for a few hours and woke up when i had a dream about boyf:( gosh! i really miss him. 5 days of not meeting feels like FOREVER!!! urgh!!:'(

went for jogging with lil sis in the afternoon. but i just walk cause as i said earlier, im not feeling well. back at home, had my bath and uncle y came over for dinner. (ayam lemak cili padi far dinner.yum!)

& right now, i've been wondering why hanis has gone all silence? MIA ke? havent been hearing her voice for 2 days and she was last seen by me was on the day we went for a jog. aik! mane kau menghilang ehh? miss you la sis!:(

lastly, im worried about a friend of mine whom i keep him real close to my heart:') he broken up with his girl and i know how it really feels when the person that you really love leave you and vanish right in front of your eyes. everyone has his/her own weakness when it comes to handling a serious relationship. and what's more he/she have been part of your life and before you knew it, she crawl out from your heart, leaving a scar behind. i really hope to be with you, hold you in my arms and a crying shoulder. & i know you're strong dear. there's one in a million waiting for you, and that ONE is for you. and maybe this previous girl is not for you. think of the bright side and remember what you always told me? be patient and keep you heart close to allah.
chill out with some friends and think positive:) im only a fone call away. imy.




another monday is finally here and as usual there's school. and today i didnt attend school coz lil sis and i was down with a slight fever and something happen today. so this cause me for not attending school and i really hope teacher wont take any action on me or else i'll just said 'bye bye school' (waves) and plus another day im away from miss may project. only gods know how rena have been coping all this while.. chill!! i'll be coming to the rescue!!! =DD

anyway, for the past few days, i've been reading a book titled , REMAJA, SALAH SIAPA?( teenager, who's fault?)hee ok well, this book is about teenager now a days. our freedom, our fashion trend and sex!! and believe it or not, majority from all cases, malay was TOP LISTED!!

common cases was young teenager getting pregnant at a very young age. well some were forced to married and some went for abortion and some guys just disappear and took no responsibility at all (main buat anak pandai, biler anak kluar dari puki pompan kau, kau pon lesap. bodoh peh anjing!!)

and not only that, cases such as young teenage girls from age 12-16, has now turn to be a wanna be ''minah rep''. SAPPP!!! buat kekek!! korek telinge sndiri pon blom pass! haha..

and another case was , tattooing. ok ni best! well, to me, tattoo is a body art. and someday, i'll get one myself. maybe?*kening up up*

clubbing? alcohol? ala, k ar..all this is common la kan.. hidop mau ENJOY beb!!=DD
but drugs? pheww~~!! angkat bijik, jalan jauh oii..

so yea, these's are the few topics

i need to sleep! there's school tomorrow!! goodnight readers!

xoxo


recently i've been having this sharp pain in my stomach. i dont think its about the food i eat, but maybe its my gastric coz i've been trying to go on diet*wink*

lets update bout my dailies. as you can see, today is friday and without realizing, i haven't been attending school for the whole week!!!! goshh!! rabak kepe!! im just to tired. without any proper rest, i know there's no way i can get my ass off my bed, dragging my foot into the bathroom and get ready for school. and the weather been cooling these few days.. ahhhhh... syiok!!:)

well somehow i know im wrong to neglet school and project but this is me, i intend to take things slow without any stress coz i know when im down with stress, i cant do my work properly. hm, next week is the time where i need to show may thet tin our progress in her project. haixx...pile of work waiting for me.

anyway, i think im going out for a stroll or most properly for a jog or mayb chill out with some friends:))

boyf 's still snore like babi hutan and soon he's off to work. alaaaa...

& lastly, i would like to post something here for fadli aka ahtee pendek:) yesterday i was thinking of you. i mean not really about you laa..but somehow i miss hearing you strum your guitar:') alaa.. the last time pon duluuuuuu skali, da lamer.. kite nk dngr lagi!!! we'll meet up someday ok?:)




when fizaa blabber~~~!!! :P 

currently i'll been hearing or perhaps see some of my friends getting stress up over relationship, friendship, school, life, work, family and even money. well, to me this is just our roll act on earths. only Allah know how we should really end this piece of roll play.  in the world of entertainment, director direct you and you have to follow it and you knew it that you cant change his bloody story even though you don't like it, well its the same, you cant change what he have given to us. its all written in Quran and only he knows.

my life sucks,really. and no matter how hard i've tried, it will always come to an end where decision need to be made wisely. and the worst thing of all, when we have a regret in life!!! ishk!ishk! ishk! well, i did something bad in my life which i know i'll regret it for the rest of my life and here's no turning back!!!:(

as for love matter? well, some says love is blind but hell yea, its true sometimes. hee! i start to know the meaning of ''love'' from my ex, firdaus(fizzy) where we've gone through thick and thin for 1 yr 8 mths together but without realizing, he fool me and we end up with a break up. i learn how to love, i learn to be patient and i learn to be independent. and my next relationship, family and relative were involve. we talk about future, marriage,having kids,career etc. the warmness in us although we fought alot but so what? we fight in order to know and understand each other and our weaknesses. and i thank my family and friend for showing me whats right and wrong. especially to my dearest nek biyah for being very understanding and supportive*wink*

school? well, i hope to graduate * finger cross* and start off with my career. earn some cash, support family, saving up, and insyaállah married as plan by me and boyf? school ends in 4-5 mths time and i'm FREEEEE!!!!:))

friends? hmm, they just come and go. i've more boyfriends compare to all my gfs.. cause i get along well with the boys. as for the girls, gossips is their game and bad mouth-ing is their thing*wink* BUT, a true friends sticks together as a family, care like a mother, scold like a father, tease like a sister and irritates like a brother but a friend loves you more than a lover:))

i gonna bed soon!
thankiu for reading!
good night!:)

xoxo



ohh sweet sunshine:)

yesterday meet my princess, fetch her over and bring over to my place. she's 4mths old now..wahh!! alisha da big girl la..mummy love you!muacks!!<3 alisha meet her atok mamat(my dad) and nenek shida(my mum) la sey..she seem to be happy around my family...urgh!! she's so cute!! well, to cut it short, i skip class yesterday =P

fetch boyf from work. he's now working in amk so it takes less than an hour to reach there but more than half an hour so thats make round 45mins perhaps? yea so we walk together with 1 of his work partner as he stays bedok too but nearer to the sheng siong, so we bus 22 back to bedok. slack with boyf and he send me home ard 11 plus.gosh! wat a day!

anyway, Aunt seem to get more skinner:( it really hurts me to see her condition right now but still, she stay strong and pray to allah, day and night without fail. she cant ever sit up right now, whats more walking? no no no..all she do now is just lying in her bed all day long and its a good thing that she've hired a maid to take care of her now. at least we all know that she'll be safe some how laa...

as for today, i overslept which means that im super late for school and i bet miss may will be mad at me and also ashish. and renaa TOO!!!! oh oh!!! im sorry! i havent been getting enough rest since i settle things down with boyf. everything's in a mess u see:'( and this is the month where i get really busy with family stuff, relatives wedding and also an undone project:( and i also do jogging so as you can see, things are really getting out off hands. dear god! please help!:( well, i intend to go for my after class and see if i can help out in my project but miss may was absent and rena was already at home, so i took a detour and back into my room.

i spent my day cleaning up my room. after all these busy weeks, ive no time to sweep or mop and do some cleaning AT ALL!! so every corner of my rooms was covered with DUST!! and with lil sis at home, she help me with the house chores:) uncle y will be coming over the in evening for dinner.


ahhh!! soo much nicer! =))

 im gonna watch my movie now!


xoxo!
miss boyf<3