fizaa.

2010-01-11T11:14:00.002+08:00

imlossingyou. & i miss you alot!!

hubby, please be there for me. i need you.

ily<3

2010-01-09T12:11:00.001+08:00

its been awhile since i last blog. and let me said this,I HATE THIS LIFE OF MINE!!! really! just the start of new year, i thought that everything's gonna alright and later, before i knew it everything turns dark. real dark that i lost my way. i dont know which way i need to go and where im heading to.

dear allah, please make my precious rest in peace and let him know that i'll always love him='(

i thank my dearest friends for being there - rena, hanis, suhaila and kak wati. but i must said rena really did alot='( thanx babe.

2009-12-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

stupid bangs!

i havent get my fingers typing for my blog post and its been a week! well, kinda busy i guess. anyways here's the highlights ok.

: lil sis got a new SamsungF480i and she's not worth for it. haha.. i should be the one using. kecik2 da pandai nak hp canggeh2.
: kak wati make my day go gaga on 241203 :)
: relationship with boyf corrupted. and im not lovin it.
: im keep craving for food.
: i eat 2-3 spoon of rice.
: strong headache which cause me to stay in bed for 2 days.
: slack with rena.
: im broke.
: i have a stupid bangs!!urgh!

and yesterday was chilling night. slack with joshua, rena and sok ling at tamp and joshua really know how to keep his promise. haha.. thnx:) and yesterday night was hell! ihatemyselfforlovingyou. ='(

heartBROKEN='(

2009-12-20T14:06:00.001+08:00

sunday sunday sunday's here!

woke up early in the morning at 6.30am for breakfast with parents and lil sis. we had thosai=) but this time, i couldn't finish it cause somehow it doesn't taste that good as velu's restaurant. for this, i have to agree with dad*wink* and also for some reason, i dont feel good this morning. my head's spinning and i feel that im gonna drop any minute now. gosh! pening kpale ku!!

back at home, bump on my bed and zzZZzzzzZzZzZZz . well, i couldnt take it anymore. and for this, i forget to give boyf a morning call and wake him up for work. poor baby! sorry dear. i was totally knock out.

& i just woke up a moment ago and still feeling dizzy. i think i'll just rest in bed today. urgh! i hate when this happens.

thats all folks!
ENJOY YOUR SUNDAY!:)

xoxo.
imissyoualotbaby.

2009-12-19T19:42:00.001+08:00

hellos!*wave*

guess what? yesterday was GEREK!=D
dating with hanis was first!!! i miss her you know! finally she's back from batam and she bought me a shirt. thankiu dear sis. xoxo. and we proceed to ite simei cause she wanna apply for a full time course and i pray her success. amin. next was a date with love. me and hanis go for lunch at MacDornalds while waiting for boyf.

plan for boyf was to surprise him for our belated 9 months anniversary but he ruin it all cause he keep pestering me, 'baby..what's in that bag?' ...urgh! irritating brat! haha. and later he found out himself when i send hanis off and i left the bag with him and ooppss! surprise's OUT!! urgh! instead of having laughter, tears of joy, everything change and we pop out a very serious conversation and in my mind was..''urgh! y is this happening?''*eyes rolling*

so surprise was over -_- urgh! tk puas hati seyy! nevermind, there's always next time ok baby?next was meeting ''father-in-law''. hee! after 5 months of not visiting, finally i show up and gosh! i miss ayah manan:)

slack over my area and finally home sweet home.

all i know is that im deeply in love with you and nothing else matter.

2009-12-17T09:56:00.000+08:00

morning peeps! i havent been update recently. last week was cousin wedding day and obviously ive no time to blog. so lets just keep it short and sweet ok? its raining outside and im covered with my blanket as i get my fingers working on my keyboard. grrr... its coold ok? i woke up this morning with my eyes sore, running nose and head spinning:( well thats because ive only 4 hours of sleep!

can you just imagine getting into fight with someone u don't really 'click' and this person is trying to judge on how you behave? fuck! and the worst thing is that she involve into my relationship! !@#$%^&*#$%^&*(!!! ive known her for 9 mths now and yest she gave me a stupid bloody long text and all were crap! *rolling eyes* doesn't she has anything better to do or said? c'mon you're 22,bitch! even my lil sis think maturely and better. shame on you girl. its ok if you hate me, ditch me but try making fool of my bf, and we'll see. *tu part, ko mau lari kuat2 ar sis*

anyway, lets just fuck this topic ok? i mean, why must i tired my fingers about typing all about her, right? pfft!
i have better thing to do ok? etc PROJECT! its going NO WHERE! urgh! things really getting cranky for me. we're left with 2 mths plus i guess to complete our end yr project and its getting haywire. urgh! : rena, how how how? haix... and right now, im on my own, i dont slack often with rena like we used to be, hanis's away to batam and i think she'll be back soon, kak wati will be meeting me SOON but depends on situation,i guess, i havent been dating with either fidah or sue for some times now.... and thses ppl whom i miss the most!!!!*HUGGGSSSSS*

cousin wedding day:)

ps imissyousoomuchsayang!

xoxo.

2009-12-11T21:57:00.000+08:00

can you imagine being broke for almost a month and im still broke!! urgh! holidays coming soon but i still need to come for my make up lesson and it sucks! i mean, why bother to call it 'holiday' when you still need to attend lesson right? and on top of that, its 3 day of make up class!! and therefore i dont think i can look for any part time job*sob sob* mati la saye kering tkde duit! nak makan ape? batu ke? haizz...

and example is today. its little princess day out and im out of cash!!urgh! i feel so lousy going out without having cash in my wallet. anyway, it doesn't really matter right? my intention was to see that botak lil princess:) today princess went to town!wEe!! best nyeee alisha jln2 kt town ehh? mama, uncle and mummy very rajin to bring u out kan kan kan?:) we went window shooping around marina and also slack by river side. babygirl's getting heavier!!heee!

more picture to be upload but im beat! gonna turn in soon cos tmr there's wedding to attend. goodnight darlings!

xoxo

2009-12-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

tiring tuesday!!

was late for school for an hour and a half. class start at 8am but i reach school but i reach at 9.30 coz ayah wake me up at 8-_-''

yea, so 1st was ashish class and i need to complete all my previous labs, 1hr30mins of break,rena,dennis,joshua and myslef slack outside school and smoke:)

next was miss may class and we just surt the net. if i know that school was this boring, i shouldnt have gone to school! waste my time and my bus fare!!!urgh! lesson finish at 4 plus and home sweet home.

after i had my bath, i slept like a log till 8pm and that's when kak wati give me a call for our next date:) i miss her lotsa!<3

baby, im missing you badly. really!

when's our next date dear?

kau tak rindu aku pe?

nak mentel ngan kau la bushuk!

i think im gonna watch singapore idol now and get some sleep soon! and im still pending rena answer weather to go to school tmr or not.hee!goodnight readers!

xoxo.

2009-12-07T21:27:00.002+08:00

ImMISSINGYOUBABY!

only gods know how much im missing you. really i do. will you please hurried home and call me?

im yearning for your voice and im waiting patiently for our date.

goodnight love.

ily lotsa.

xoxo

2009-12-06T20:44:00.002+08:00

she's gone! ='(

my mak long's gone. she pass away on saturday night and i wasnt at home. i received the news and im glad i was with boyf='(

today, my family woke up at 5 am and we leave house at 6am. its another sad moment for me. i still remember atok leave us 4 yrs ago and its still remain clear in my mind='( im just glad that i get to see mak long for the last time. mak long di kebumi kan at 10am and we follow the guys to kubor='( thats the last time i'll get to see her body='( soon as we reach kubor, we took the opportunity to visit kuboh arwah atok and nenek and its my 1st time!='( haizz.. we'll miss you!=(

Before (kubur arwah atok) its been a year since uncle last visit atok and its a mess!

after
**************************************************************

Al-Fatehah kepada nya, Esah bte Abdullah

Semoga roh nya dicucuri rahmat dan tempat kan dia disamping org2 yang beriman.

amin.

='(

2009-12-04T19:32:00.000+08:00

cooling Friday!

its friday people!:) cold weather and im lovin it beybeh! lil sis and myself woke up at 11 and ibu's nagging even when her throat sore,infact she nags more and louder when her throat sore.hahas!=P boyf gave me a call when he's leaving for woke and its raining heavily. poor him:( keep yourself warm ok dear?*HUGS*

lil sis and me went down to pasar malam(night market) for keropok leko and vadai,our afternoon snacks:) and it goes well with a hot cup of coffee..ahh...what's more could u ask for*wink*

ibu's making jempot-jempot(prawn fritters) to bring some to mak long place. supposedly epok2 was on top of the list but ayah thinks that its abit 'leceh'(troublesome) we got roll out the dough,fill in the sardines and clip it into shapes:) we'll be going over mak long place after mahgrib to see how's she coping now. i hope she's fine='(

currently browsing FB,chatting and im listening to a songs titled ''tak ku sangga, tak ku duga'' by apit Ft Appy. im obsessed by their voices and the meaningful lyrics. I LIKE! check it out ok?

current mood: missing love:(

xoxo.

2009-12-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

al-fatehah

ku bersedakah al-fatehah, tidak putus siang dan malam. airmata menemani setiap hari dan waktu. kau di uji allah tapi ketabahan hati mu, smue dosa2 mu di hapus nya. ku tahu kau menahan kesakitan dan kepahitan tpi ini la tulisan allah. dia lebih mengetahui. dia yg maha pengampun dan maha penyayang. kau tunjuk petande nazak mu, setiap hari, tubuh mu berubah. semakin hari semakin lemah. kau diganggu syaitan dan dapat mengenali, tiada yang lain melainkan ALLAH. kau di uji setaip hari dan ku tahu dngn hati mu yang tabah dan bnyk berdoa, tuhan lebih menguji. dlam al-quran bersabdah, barang siapa yang pegang pada ugame, dan yang sedang di uji allah ketika saat terakhir, dosa2 nya akan di hapus. ya allah, berikan la ku ketabahan dan ketenangan di hati untuk tempuh ini smue. ku badi selepas kematiaan arwah atok ku dan ku takot jika terjadi kedua kali. tapi jika ini tulisan kamu, biar la dia pergi. ku reda dan berserah pada mu ya allah. ='( ='( ='(

al-fatehah

as you see, there's nothing much to post. im busy being by her side.

='(

xoxo

2009-11-29T21:30:00.001+08:00

SENTOSA is somewhere i long wanted to go. a place to relax, smell the breeze, the soft sands, fantastic view, under the coconut tree, and a peaceful mind set. in your bikini set and shades.what more could u ask for? BUT bringing alongs somes wonderful friends will make it PERFECT! the voice of people laugher, joking and crap-ing*giggle*

next was BODY WORLD! gee! im getting excited just blogging about it.*grin* well, its something which i want to see it infront of my very own eyes. peeps just said that, ITS FUN LAA SEYY!! but wth? i'll never knew it until i find it out myself right? body world is an exhibition about body parts. They belonged to people who declared during their lifetime that their bodies should be made available after their deaths for the
qualification of physicians and the instruction of laypersons. Many donors underscore that by donating their body, they want to be useful to others even after their death. Their selfless donations allow us to gain unique insights into human bodies, which have thus far been reserved for physicians at best. cool huh?*wink*
go and catch it people:)

and lastly, i want to spent the whole day with love and i mean THE WHOLE DAMN FUCKING DAY!!=))

i want it to be just you and me. *senyum big big*

oh well, actually im kinda bored. there's only lil sis and myself at home right now. ibu and ayah went visiting. and mak long getting weaker each and everyday :'( haix.. hm, boyf finishing work soon and i cant wait to heard his sexy voice!=DD

goodnight readers!!

xoxo

2009-11-29T11:50:00.002+08:00

good morning!!!

its SUNDAY!! & i've no idea what im gonna do today. i dont think family will be going out and i dont think i have any date with either hanis, kak wati or boyf. but urgh! i miss them alot!:(

recently im just facebook-ing. oh well,is this what normally people do when boredom strikes? no right? i mean there's always something else to do but hey u're just infront of ur bloody PC and well of coz all u think is facebook-ing. but only if u're obsess with it.*giggle*

& yea! i have this thought of doing photography *kening naik naik* :) atleast its something u can do when boredom strikes. all you need is ur camera*wink*

and also im eyeing on NOKIA e71 model or perhaps others but as the same design? boyf thought of getting it in mid of december:) I LIKE! can i have this phone baby?*senyum mentel* haha

i think i'll just spent my day doing my chorus and have my rest.. im getting better already:) have a nice sunday people!

xoxo

2009-11-28T22:34:00.001+08:00

satay for dinner! YUMYUM!=)

we went to East Coast, lagoon for satay and we had a SPLENDID dinner i must said:) lil sis ate like there's no tomorrow.haha.. and an additional of mee kwey teow:D thankiu daddy for the dinner<3

and right now, ibu keep nagging at me for turning early to bed but urgh! i miss boyf and i want to heard his sexy voice.hahaha=P I LIKE! *winkwink*

i'll update again soon yaww!
i hope this flu of mine will go away soon cause it irritated me alot!

goodnight readers!

xoxo

2009-11-28T11:56:00.005+08:00

GOODBYE FRIDAY! HELOOOO SATURDAY!!!=DD

I missed blogging yesterday as i was busy the whole day with family and i was sick!=(
i go around rubbing my nose, sneezing, coughing, and feeling lousy. we went to mak long house 1st. mak long getting worse. it hurts me to see her in such condition. she no longer want to eat anything. all she do is blabber about something which never exist. haiz..get well soon!=(

next house was nek biah. ayam lemak chilli pada, sambal prawn, bagedel and serondeng for our dinner! =) wooshh!! sedap! she's the best cook and we never missed her house! NEVER! home sweet home at 7=)

boyf ends work at 9.30pm and i received a text msg from and it really pissed me off!!!! we had this stupid small fight over the phone and i was told that everything gotta change and i went, FUCK! what are you trying to said?!... there's nothing to fight about but c'mon i cant go on if ur 'brother' keep coming into our picture.urgh! i know how much u hate being control and since the day i knew u, i've NEVER EVER control ur life but instead i give you my understanding and support.

baby,
i know how much you really want this and im giving it to you. im not trying to give you pressure or stress but baby, we are in this together u see. it takes two hands to clap and i only want it between you and me baby. i'll respect any decision you make but at a point of time, me need to take my stand too dear. its not only about you. but about me,you and us. i woke up this morning and i receive your msg, i smile and said 'you're crazy baby'. and i gave you that morning call, in my sore voice, comforting you, telling you that everything's gonna be alright. i gave you my kisses through the phone, and u keep silence. i know karma is on our way but let just said its our fate and lets just go through this shit together. im yours to keep babylove.

2009-11-26T21:20:00.001+08:00

OH I MISSED WEDNESDAY!=P

here comes Thursday and hell! i'm down with a fever and im having this stupid irritating nose block!urgh! I went for my morning class and few step before i reach the door of my class, i can only see on one there and so i called ain and yessaarr!! FIZA KENE TIPU! and no one told me about it!!urgh! and well of coz, im abit moody today, my stomach ache alot, fever, hot weather and i didnt get to eat what im craving for!!! ='(

i make my way back home feeling angry and all i was think was SATAAAYYY!! I beep hanis up and ask her to find me the best satay in town and boyf told me to go to afgan and see if i could find any there but urgh!! NONE! i end up eating gado2 and chapati and its not what im craving for!

home sweet home after lunch and i was feeling lousy. i slept the whole afternoon but this time boyf's been with me around the clock to check on me. -_- i appreciate that you care baby but u're disturbing my sleep!urgh! in the evening, farhan called and ask me to come down his area to settle things up for me and he's the next person to disturb my sleep! kiwakk!! bingit pe satu2?! and now im supposedly to be in bed resting but here i am blogging and facebook-ing:)

3 hours to midnight and i want to take this opportunity to wish HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to my dearest friend, AHN!=)

may Allah bless you with good health and fortune. amin!:)

dear friend,

its been 3 yrs of being friends with you and im lovin in! u've seen me grow from a 15yr old girl to an 18 yr old adult teenager :) so much past and im beginning to feel that you're no longer the ahn that i use to know. i remember how we used to talk on the phone till late night and i remember the promises between us but now, i don't think those promises is no longer exist. i pray the best for you and im yearning for the old ahn that i last knew. =')

i'm gonna call boyf in few minutes time and will be turning in soon!

goodnight readers and SELAMAT HARI RAYE HAJI!

xoxo:)

2009-11-24T21:38:00.002+08:00

topics topics topics

Imagine how its feels like to be fuck up by your teacher for not attending school for 2 weeks and not doing class labs and right now my attendances have drop to 45%!!! urgh! rabak ke pe? and also i haven't been buying my school books!! haha. oh well, i need to discipline myself, try to wake up early for school, avoid talking on the phone till late night and stop cabot my classes!!

supposedly, i WAS ABOUT to go for my afternoon class, miss may class but i have this very good friend la, her name is rena, she's the one who have been keeping me away from school.haha.. but seriously, if she didn't came up with the idea of going home, i'll be in class planning for our project. =P ohh well, i wasn't feeling that good anyway. nose block, sore throat, cough, flu and a slight fever=(

I PRAY HARD FOR THEM TO BE SAFE!

mak long's in a critical condition and we're trying our best to visit her often and just 2 days ago, her last son got into an accident and in ICU.. but im glad that he's not in coma and just today he've been discharge. fast huh?=) alhamdullilah la.. please watch over them ya allah.

ayah been smoking secretly and how i wish i could told him off! well, i did once and he promise to stop but he lied! i know its hard but he've gone a major operation before i dont wish him to suffer anymore. and ayah been complaining that his chest hurts recently. see! i told you!urgh! DEGIL!

havent heard from cousin and i hope he's doing fine. he's still waiting for his medical result. to check whether his cancer cells are totally gone or not cause his condition was in stage 4!

please Allah, keep them close to me.

Love

he's been busy working and i can only meet him 1 week once!=( and i miss him like crazy and im lovin it! i can see that he's trying to change but that doesnt mean that he wont change back to his old habit right? well, im sorry for my stupid ego. i shouldn't ask for a split and i apologies baby. i should have ask you rather then shooting my mouth off without knowing the true story. and im sorry for putting u in tears and i dont mean it baby =( i really love you and i want you to know that no one can replace u. <3

the end

ok go! im dont have aything to blabber about anymore and i'll just stop here ok?:)
goodnight readers!

xoxo

2009-11-23T11:16:00.001+08:00

skip my morning class as im sending my ibu relatives to the airport cos they're going haji:( kinda sad but ohh well, its a blessing:) meeting a friend in a few hours time and i cant wait!! weepee~!! :) boyf's working today and he only get his off on Wednesday or Thursday and im missing him like crazy:(

anyway, yesterday alisha came over and wee!! my princess's super cute!! I LIKE!:DD

yesterday.

ayah and me fetch alisha over and called rena to drop my place, slack and smoke. and we were talking bout this child father yg perangai mcm SIAL!! bikin anak tau, nak jmpe malu! WTF!?!? he's not a man sia! he's a dog! STUPID DOG! i hate him!!!urgh!! k enough about him, cab alisha back to simei with rena and hanis, then send hanis back to tam and home sweet home together with rena:) & im missing alisha already:(

oh love~!

i miss spending time with you. i miss holding your hands. i miss your hot body. i miss plucking your bulu kaki*grin* HEHE.. i miss pulling your hair. i miss kissing your lips, forehead and cheeks. i miss your neck nibbling. i miss you playing with my hair. i miss taking our picture together. i miss your bedtime songs. i miss your nag. i miss the way you tease me. i miss watching the way you eat. i miss watching you dancing. i miss your stupid face. i miss watching the way you curl up like a prawn when you're asleep. i miss your hug. i miss your voice. i miss the way you tickle me. i miss the way you pamper me. i miss EVERY BITS of you baby!<3

2009-11-22T00:07:00.001+08:00

hello saturday!!!

waking up late in this beautiful cold weather. ahhh... indah nye dunia.. :) thought of spending some quality time with my beloved family. lil sis's away from home. she have gone to cameron highland for her ncc thingy for 4 days and im missing her badly. i feel so lonely during the night. no one to talk to and really, there's no laughter and no one to bully. gosh! miss you la badak!:P and bros out to work and im all alone with ibu and ayah... boriiinng-_- supposedly alisha coming over but there's a change of plan. she's coming tomorrow and i cant wait!wEe~~!

anyway, i met rena and sok ling today. slack around my area. gosh! the last time i saw her was during sheesha session. smoke and talk cork are what we did today lor.. nothing much actually but at least i know, I DIDNT PAITAO OK!! hahah=))

& oh well, currently chatting with wak(wajdi) now. kecooh ar tu anak.. but i feel good la chatting with him. he's a good friend! syg kau la bodoh! cepat2 la ade mataer!:PP hm, ouh well, im feeling bored!! boyf out fishing with his friend and i dont think he wants to spent talking otf with me:( alaa... oh well, i'll text hanis perhaps?hee..

goodnight readers!
:)

xoxo

2009-11-20T15:17:00.000+08:00

FIZA MIA?

ok go! for the past few days i havent been blogging as i've been busy with some stuff and havent been feeling well:( i've received my SSAS money and oh well, i didnt get to shop as there's no tomorrow cause ibu keep asking me for money and furthermore she haven't been giving me my daily pocket money and i've to fork out everything on my own:( etc ezlink, food and drink & cigarettes.

i also hevent been going to school for the whole week!! mati la saye :S i've been enjoying life like the world is MINE! all mine! i date with hanis, kak wati, and more friends! anyway, im glad that boyf and me are back to normal*wink* alhamdullilah. and also im happy that hanis problem's slowly coming to the end. 1 down and few more to go.

aiyaa.. i dunno where to start blogging actually *scratch head* just so you know that i've been busy enjoying meself till i neglect my studies and right now, my final year exam's waiting for me. oh no! me dont know anything. and just today, i met rena and borrow some book from the library about server thingy. me cracking me head to think how to help rena in this stupid big project!! urgh!

anyway, pic below was my date with kak wati :DD

& right now. i feel like crewing on something nice, drinking something hot and watching something that's funny. ohhh gosh~~!! cold weather for the past few days. sleeping without switching on the fan and something real cold to hug!! waduh!! sungguh best! and i guess i'll just stop here. update again soon ok?

p.s missing alisha, rafidah and hanis bnyk2!!:(

2009-11-12T16:52:00.001+08:00

You Hurt Me So Much When All I ever Did Was Love You:(

where did i go wrong?

2009-11-12T15:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday school was ok. went for miss may class and SW next. i was not feeling good and i didn't get to do my gym! WASTED!! yesterday sw lesson look kinda fun. shall do it for my next class*wink*
school end at 4.40pm, make my way home and went to fetch boyf. well, things aint going real well you see. back at home, body temperature's really hot! migraine and flu. urgh! me feeling sick!:( and mimi acompany me by the fone and he's nice laa. he's my bestie:)

& today i didnt attend school. fever and also stomach cramp!! urgh! me hate it when period's here and cramps strikes!!:'( ibu and lil sis's out and im all alone at home. bored and i really need to smoke!!! boyf's at work right now and there's no way he can contact me:( & im missing hanis and alisha alot!!!! :'( i wanna hug them!!

2009-11-12T14:47:00.003+08:00

THAT FAKE SMILE.

i'm in a complicated situation. you gave me pressure and its not just about you and me. but also about your surrounding. having brothers and forgetting about me. you make me feel so small and i don't matter in your life anymore. i've given you some space and being very understanding but things seem to get out of hand. slowly you're drifting apart from me and we no longer spent time together. things are just not the same anymore baby. you took away my smile and put me in tears instead. by doing so, you're killing me slowly. even at your off day and that is on our 8 mthsary, you make a plan with you brothers instead of spending some time with me:'( gosh! why is this happening? this is not how i picture it. things were so well between us and now it sucks ever since that brother of yours came into our relationship! and well, i dont blame him totally but you, as my man. you should also think. think about how you want to manage your on time. i cant bare to leave you. u meant so much to me and until the day i took took my last breath, i will always love you. about how we plan to get engaged by end of next year, i really hope to make it true. with our family blessing and i really to get it going. you are so special to me that i've never had this feeling for any of my ex even at the very longest relationship. not one have ever make me feel this way and im not sure myself why do i love so much! i pray day and night for us, our happiness and hope to last long and lets over come our this obstacles together. my hands in yours and our heart as one. insyaállah we get what we really want one day=') but please dont punish me in this way cause it hurts! im smiling on the outside but im dying on my inside. i swear i am:(

i love you baby.

2009-11-10T19:53:00.001+08:00

school was ok today. didnt do my lab as usual and i have this feeling i'll have to retain in that stupid school for another 6 mths!! yucks! soo sucks!! ashish gave me his one kind of look that he's piss with me for now coming for his test and not coming to school for the whole week =P
well, school start at 8 and rena and myself went back home at around 11. haha.. back at home, i was not feeling well and yea, my body temperature was hot hot hot!:( took my nap for a few hours and woke up when i had a dream about boyf:( gosh! i really miss him. 5 days of not meeting feels like FOREVER!!! urgh!!:'(

went for jogging with lil sis in the afternoon. but i just walk cause as i said earlier, im not feeling well. back at home, had my bath and uncle y came over for dinner. (ayam lemak cili padi far dinner.yum!)

& right now, i've been wondering why hanis has gone all silence? MIA ke? havent been hearing her voice for 2 days and she was last seen by me was on the day we went for a jog. aik! mane kau menghilang ehh? miss you la sis!:(

lastly, im worried about a friend of mine whom i keep him real close to my heart:') he broken up with his girl and i know how it really feels when the person that you really love leave you and vanish right in front of your eyes. everyone has his/her own weakness when it comes to handling a serious relationship. and what's more he/she have been part of your life and before you knew it, she crawl out from your heart, leaving a scar behind. i really hope to be with you, hold you in my arms and a crying shoulder. & i know you're strong dear. there's one in a million waiting for you, and that ONE is for you. and maybe this previous girl is not for you. think of the bright side and remember what you always told me? be patient and keep you heart close to allah.
chill out with some friends and think positive:) im only a fone call away. imy.

I miss your SMILE,

I miss your EYES,

I miss your Touch,

I miss your KISSES,

I miss BEING HUG,

I miss EVERY BITS OF YOU!!

:'(

2009-11-09T22:48:00.001+08:00

another monday is finally here and as usual there's school. and today i didnt attend school coz lil sis and i was down with a slight fever and something happen today. so this cause me for not attending school and i really hope teacher wont take any action on me or else i'll just said 'bye bye school' (waves) and plus another day im away from miss may project. only gods know how rena have been coping all this while.. chill!! i'll be coming to the rescue!!! =DD

anyway, for the past few days, i've been reading a book titled , REMAJA, SALAH SIAPA?( teenager, who's fault?)hee ok well, this book is about teenager now a days. our freedom, our fashion trend and sex!! and believe it or not, majority from all cases, malay was TOP LISTED!!

common cases was young teenager getting pregnant at a very young age. well some were forced to married and some went for abortion and some guys just disappear and took no responsibility at all (main buat anak pandai, biler anak kluar dari puki pompan kau, kau pon lesap. bodoh peh anjing!!)

and not only that, cases such as young teenage girls from age 12-16, has now turn to be a wanna be ''minah rep''. SAPPP!!! buat kekek!! korek telinge sndiri pon blom pass! haha..

and another case was , tattooing. ok ni best! well, to me, tattoo is a body art. and someday, i'll get one myself. maybe?*kening up up*

clubbing? alcohol? ala, k ar..all this is common la kan.. hidop mau ENJOY beb!!=DD
but drugs? pheww~~!! angkat bijik, jalan jauh oii..

so yea, these's are the few topics

and after reading, it remind me of my past memories. i remember the look on ibu face and her voice. my ibu wanted to send me to the girls home. itu la mase zaman setan aku!!:P but now, im soo much better! with the help from allah, berkat doa mak bapak and boyf. he help me change alot. from a devil to an angel..hee!! cheyyy...yea.. my past time really sucks!! and right now im glad to be back on the right tracks!:')

ok now. its late and im turning in soon!

goodnite readers!

xoxo

2009-11-08T21:40:00.001+08:00

goodness! it has past 3 days since i last blog. lets start on the day where we had SWENSEN for dinner:) and that's on friday. i met sofie right after her morning shift at seng kang compass point, bus to yishun to fetch my nephew,ikhlil and bus back to tam. meet mak yah at tam small mac and we all make our way to swensen:)

home sweet home after that splendid dinner:)

saturday was kinda bored for me. 1st plan was supposed to babysit my nephew but plan was cancelled. so i thought of making another plan instead of getting my ass big by staying at home all day long. so i decided to keep myself busy by doing the house chorus and sms-ing with boyf, chit chat with hanis, kak wati called and i spend the rest of the day sleeping. hahaha..

& today i woke up in the morning and religion class was at the top of the list, ayah drive me and sis home while ayah n ibu went for their wedding invitation. soon aunt sam came over and i was bored to dead at home and jogging was plan by me and hanis:) so pack up my jogging stuff and head down to tampines stadium but unfortunately, there's an event going on so no jogging is allowed:( so head to hanis house to put our stuff and there, faisal join us for a jog around the neighborhood. after jogging, shower at hanis house, slack and home sweet home:)

P.S TAPAK KASOT HANIS TERKOPEK!!!!

AHAHAHAAHAH!!=P

i need to sleep! there's school tomorrow!! goodnight readers!

xoxo

2009-11-06T10:18:00.002+08:00

stress free.

recently i've been having this sharp pain in my stomach. i dont think its about the food i eat, but maybe its my gastric coz i've been trying to go on diet*wink*

lets update bout my dailies. as you can see, today is friday and without realizing, i haven't been attending school for the whole week!!!! goshh!! rabak kepe!! im just to tired. without any proper rest, i know there's no way i can get my ass off my bed, dragging my foot into the bathroom and get ready for school. and the weather been cooling these few days.. ahhhhh... syiok!!:)

well somehow i know im wrong to neglet school and project but this is me, i intend to take things slow without any stress coz i know when im down with stress, i cant do my work properly. hm, next week is the time where i need to show may thet tin our progress in her project. haixx...pile of work waiting for me.

anyway, i think im going out for a stroll or most properly for a jog or mayb chill out with some friends:))

boyf 's still snore like babi hutan and soon he's off to work. alaaaa...

& lastly, i would like to post something here for fadli aka ahtee pendek:) yesterday i was thinking of you. i mean not really about you laa..but somehow i miss hearing you strum your guitar:') alaa.. the last time pon duluuuuuu skali, da lamer.. kite nk dngr lagi!!! we'll meet up someday ok?:)

MISSING HANI ALISHA ALOT!!!!!:'(

2009-11-04T20:27:00.001+08:00

when fizaa blabber~~~!!! :P

currently i'll been hearing or perhaps see some of my friends getting stress up over relationship, friendship, school, life, work, family and even money. well, to me this is just our roll act on earths. only Allah know how we should really end this piece of roll play. in the world of entertainment, director direct you and you have to follow it and you knew it that you cant change his bloody story even though you don't like it, well its the same, you cant change what he have given to us. its all written in Quran and only he knows.

my life sucks,really. and no matter how hard i've tried, it will always come to an end where decision need to be made wisely. and the worst thing of all, when we have a regret in life!!! ishk!ishk! ishk! well, i did something bad in my life which i know i'll regret it for the rest of my life and here's no turning back!!!:(

as for love matter? well, some says love is blind but hell yea, its true sometimes. hee! i start to know the meaning of ''love'' from my ex, firdaus(fizzy) where we've gone through thick and thin for 1 yr 8 mths together but without realizing, he fool me and we end up with a break up. i learn how to love, i learn to be patient and i learn to be independent. and my next relationship, family and relative were involve. we talk about future, marriage,having kids,career etc. the warmness in us although we fought alot but so what? we fight in order to know and understand each other and our weaknesses. and i thank my family and friend for showing me whats right and wrong. especially to my dearest nek biyah for being very understanding and supportive*wink*

school? well, i hope to graduate * finger cross* and start off with my career. earn some cash, support family, saving up, and insyaállah married as plan by me and boyf? school ends in 4-5 mths time and i'm FREEEEE!!!!:))

friends? hmm, they just come and go. i've more boyfriends compare to all my gfs.. cause i get along well with the boys. as for the girls, gossips is their game and bad mouth-ing is their thing*wink* BUT, a true friends sticks together as a family, care like a mother, scold like a father, tease like a sister and irritates like a brother but a friend loves you more than a lover:))

i gonna bed soon!
thankiu for reading!
good night!:)

xoxo

2009-11-04T15:43:00.002+08:00

ohh sweet sunshine:)

yesterday meet my princess, fetch her over and bring over to my place. she's 4mths old now..wahh!! alisha da big girl la..mummy love you!muacks!!<3 alisha meet her atok mamat(my dad) and nenek shida(my mum) la sey..she seem to be happy around my family...urgh!! she's so cute!! well, to cut it short, i skip class yesterday =P

fetch boyf from work. he's now working in amk so it takes less than an hour to reach there but more than half an hour so thats make round 45mins perhaps? yea so we walk together with 1 of his work partner as he stays bedok too but nearer to the sheng siong, so we bus 22 back to bedok. slack with boyf and he send me home ard 11 plus.gosh! wat a day!

anyway, Aunt seem to get more skinner:( it really hurts me to see her condition right now but still, she stay strong and pray to allah, day and night without fail. she cant ever sit up right now, whats more walking? no no no..all she do now is just lying in her bed all day long and its a good thing that she've hired a maid to take care of her now. at least we all know that she'll be safe some how laa...

as for today, i overslept which means that im super late for school and i bet miss may will be mad at me and also ashish. and renaa TOO!!!! oh oh!!! im sorry! i havent been getting enough rest since i settle things down with boyf. everything's in a mess u see:'( and this is the month where i get really busy with family stuff, relatives wedding and also an undone project:( and i also do jogging so as you can see, things are really getting out off hands. dear god! please help!:( well, i intend to go for my after class and see if i can help out in my project but miss may was absent and rena was already at home, so i took a detour and back into my room.

i spent my day cleaning up my room. after all these busy weeks, ive no time to sweep or mop and do some cleaning AT ALL!! so every corner of my rooms was covered with DUST!! and with lil sis at home, she help me with the house chores:) uncle y will be coming over the in evening for dinner.

Before

After

ahhh!! soo much nicer! =))

im gonna watch my movie now!

(for my dearest sis, hanis<3)

xoxo!
miss boyf<3

2009-11-02T16:14:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging my dailies due to my busy days. well yesterday was a busy and tiring day for me and family cause its abg wan and kak misah wedding day. and ayah's side are damn big..so imagine how big the crowd is. pheww~~ and everything ends at 6pm!!

today was suppose to have class test but it was cancel...cikgu keling,bobal pon terbelit mahh... so lesson start at 8am but i make a move ard 10.30 and make my way to see boyf.. send him to work at amk,lunch at mac and head home.. and now i think im gonna sleep soon cause i'll be visiting my aunt at night.hope she's fine..

& p.s RENA REALLY IRRITATED ME ALOT TODAY!!!!URGH!!!NINABU DOG!
hahaha

pictures will be upload soon!!

take care readers!

xoxo

2009-10-30T21:34:00.001+08:00

2 days of not updating. and partly its because i wasn't in the mood and its been a tough ride for me. lets start with today and followed by the last 2 days:)

well of course, went to school as per normal. school started at 8am but me and rena reach around 8.30am!! but there's much to do in school laa.. really..i mean, we just sit in front of our PC,Fb-ing,blogging and talk cork. the same things happen almost everyday and with only less than 10 student turn up for class..well,that's how pathetic my class is.hahaha

school end at 10.30am bus home together with rena. back at home, turn on my PC again, cause 1st and 2nd bro was still sleeping like a log!!! so it doesnt make any diff when i said im alone at home.

& actual planning was meeting up with mimi to slack at ECP but it was cancel cause its raining cats and dogs. and the scary lighting and thunder really makes me think that i should really stay at home tonight.hehe.

willie,only knows how to talk cork!!hahaha!!

Thursday.

went out with my princess, hanis and rena..wEeEeE~~~!! i like!!window shopping at parkway parade, and i dont want to said the worst thing tat happen on tat day laa...it really piss me off!! back to my princess, we send her off at simei around 5 plus,bus to tamp to slack with hanis and rena start her stupid crap about the ''SENIOR COUNSELOR'' thingy.hahahahaha!!!! next stop was rena place,we slack at reservoir,den azrul and his friend came over to join us and unexpectedly fahmi(cousin) was there to. so we all slack together..haha.. i make my way home at 10pm. kk done!!

wednesday.

after school, went over hanis place to meet her aunt..which was last seen by me when i was primary 5!!!hahahaa!!!memories oii!!=) and now her aunt is married with a son...cute nyee yacoob!!(its that the correct spelling?) took a stroll in the park with hanis sibiling and myself together with yacoob=)

2009-10-27T16:45:00.000+08:00

EX-BOYFEE?

syukur alhamdullilah mak long(1st aunt) looks much more better than the previous day when i last visit her. thank you allah. she can eat and her voice seem fresh:) and she's been transfered to the cancer ward. hope she get wells soon. :'(

ok now, guess who did i chat with earlier? my FIRST EX!! kecoh ke pe? but seriously it was like 5 yrs ago seyy!!! and that's when im sec 1 only!haha..our relationship was like very funny sey...i dont call him ''b'' and he dont call me ''honey'' but instead we talk, '' KAU AND AKU''.hahaha.. and school LIBRARY is where we always meet up during recess and after school,so called our dating spot.hahaha. and we NEVER EVER touch each other, ape lagi jln2 pimpin tngn kn?hahaha..

until today, he still said that he love me and would wait for me as long as i live in his heart and soul.cheydebah! wEeWiit!!=) but too bad, ive my guy, my own life and future but if im not fate to be with my guy, i know there's one out there waiting patiently for me:)

anyway, a new friend, AJ is his name. i got to know him from FB u see. actually, i was planning to go to sentosa and this guy suggest me to join his beach club. cool or what? hee! and currently, im chatting with him about this beach club thingy. and i think he's a nice guy*wink*

& readers, please dont think im flinging around with the guys.. this is call FRIENDS!! kawan biar beramai, kakasih biar satu! :)

it shows how much i miss my sis,nur hanis<3

2009-10-27T09:20:00.000+08:00

morning readers!

sunrise:)

just woke up from my sleep.*muke bushuk* anyway, rena text me this morning when i was still in bed. my body's aching and my heart's still pumping uncomfortably. well actually yesterday night i went to bed at 8pm,early right? yea! tats because im too tired. but i woke up at 11 plus to get myself a drink and i have this bad feelings,u see.. my chest start to ache and my hearts feels so pain. i cant breaths and i cant talk. i wanted to call for ibu and ayah but im worried they might get worried about me. i try waking lil sis up but she sleeps like a pig. even the worst earthquake wont wake her up.

knowing that my heart wasn't 'functioning' properly, i wake in the kitchen to see if i could find any medicine so i can stop the pain, but too bad, i had NONE!:( i put myself in bed,praying,wake me up the next morning,ya allah :(

well, we never went are we 'going' right? just pray lor..

alright now, gonna get back to sleep.
update soon!

xoxo.

2009-10-26T19:07:00.001+08:00

monday, the 1st day of a week. school started at 8am today but me and rena purposely came late by few minutes but still we're so called the 1st exclude eugene.hehe.. went for a puff the moment azrul reach the school*wink* back in class,heard the indian talk crap about his subject and stuff,later when i feel like vomiting and yes i did ok! due to giddiness. actually i cant stand his class laa..the way he talk really give me headache laa..aiyoo!! break at 12,skali kene sound by a big black singh for not wearing our lanyard.mcm bodoh luh seyy..they said its for our safety?wtf?what if someone pull it by my neck?bodoh kn?.. then azrul came over and ask me to accomapy him to the bank but plan was change cause his friends keep on psycho him to go home..haha..at last decision was made, all of us went home.*rena was like fucking mad.haha..sorry beb*

walk to payar lebah with his gang, me and azrul bus 28 to bedok inter, lunch at KFC and make our way home before our meeting at 4pm for a jog in the reservoir=)

reach home,bath and off to meet azrul,and yeah! we jog 1 whole round around the reservoir..azrul complete it in 45mins and me in 1HR!!!!hahahahaha!!!but hey!that was my 1st time seyy to complete it that fast!!!hahah..thnx to azrul!he trained me so i can get back my shape.hurhur!

thats all folks!
gonna rest!
chalos!

xoxo.

2009-10-25T15:00:00.000+08:00

ola ola!
currently me doing my school project. im only half way done with mr prata project and still a long way to go with miss may project. aiyoo! and i need to sumbit it tmw. where got time..jgn mcm bodoh ar!! haissshh!!

anyway, its sunday and i start off going for my religion class and today im going sgh to visit my mak long. i hope she stay strong and overcome all this. aunt sam and others coming over my house for gathering. and boyf's out somewhere in kallang,fishing with his friends-_- boriiiiiiiiing!!!

here's what i've been doing when boredom strikes. i love anything that have got to do with photo shoots. i've been offered quite a few time of becoming a models but hell no! boyf and ibu wont let me :''( sometimes its not the body they're looking for but the face,the pure smile and a nice complexion*wink* cant imagine if i were to be a model...*evil laugh*

check this out!=)

its about mix and match. i like=)

check out the guys!

HOT! =)

i should upload hunks without any tops *melts*

k done!

there's nothing interesting for me to blabber about now.hee!

chalos and thnx for reading.

xoxo.

2009-10-24T21:10:00.002+08:00

i've been listening to these two group songs(BSB and westlife) the meaning to their songs really give me peace in mind. sometimes whenever im down or feeling so stress up, music is my things:) i prefer songs that have meaningful meaning to life and relationships. even when the songs sucks to the core but when we understand the lyrics, it turns out to be nice and acceptable to the ears:) but some ppl just cant get allow with music whenever they're down,instead they go for drinking and ENJOY! well i do that sometimes but as i turn 1 older every year,im beginning to understand bits and parcels about life and relationships. drinking till u drop, clubbing,crying wont bring you anywhere but to me where there's family and friend,everything turn out well,so superb tat we know that its not the end of the world :D and on the other hand,i need music. a meaningful one ofcoz*wink*

alright now, currently im chatting with mimi(suhaimi). this typical guy which one of my friend pass my number to his and we thought of ''kenal2'' but too bad im attached and little did i expected that we get along real well:)

and btw, i thought of getting myself a digital camera and change my hp cause it getting lack. WeEEEeeEEeeEeE~~~~!!!!

im going to bed soon.

chalos!

xoxo.

2009-10-24T14:19:00.002+08:00

so confused?

webcam:) (not original,get it?)

sunshine saturday! woke up and went to the market with lil sis. breakfast at one of my fav place and we had thosai. back at home i help ibu cut the potatoes, pill the egg shell and lasty did abit of touch up to my room:) and there..everything's so neat and tidy. I LIKE:)

after doing all the chores, i decide to on my computer and try doing my project bit by bit instead of letting rena handle all of it *wink* (im a good friend indeed.hee!)

anyway i wont be visiting mak long today as ibu said that most of our relatives will be going and she dont think we can go as as hospitals been strict now a days ever since there H1N1. and yea so, i though of going in weekdays where everybody's working and im bring hanis along cause mak long use to taught her reading quran...haishh..i keep thinking of mak long now..and ibu keep crying,it pain my heart to see ibu shedding a tears=''( ibu keep telling us, u better visit mak long,so long as she still can talk, see and remember u,better go..

='''(

"Live your life from your heart. Share from your heart. And your story will touch and heal people's souls."

2009-10-23T21:52:00.001+08:00

im SORRY!:''(

I wont forgive myself if u would leave just like that. i neglet you even when i know that you've been push to the hospital and ibu ayah told me to pay a visit but knowing that im having problem in my relationship, i forget about family matter that surrounds me and even u:( and i know i was wrong and IM SORRY.

today ibu reach home from sgh,visit mak long, she came home crying telling me bout mak long condition. i burst into tears knowing that she in a bad shape. her cancer seem to have spread:'( doctors said that she have only 4mths to survive!!WTF?!!? please dont go! im SORRY for not listening to ur advises. im SORRY for skipping your quran lesson. im SORRY for giving you that face. im SORRY for EVERY SINS that i've done.

IM SO SO SORRY!:''(

ku berdoa padamu ya allah,berkatilah doa2 kami dan beri kami jalan yg lurus dalam hidop kami.amin.

2009-10-23T12:16:00.001+08:00

LET'S BOWLING!!

=DD

yesterday bowling at tampines safra, after bowling bus 65 to bugis,dinner at tong seng and we went our seperate ways. me and boyf went over my place to slack while sofie and haziq to Fullerton. the end. short and sweet kn?

ps i love you.

2009-10-22T09:09:00.001+08:00

im having my class now and im damn sleepy-_- yesterday was otf with love till late night and i think i dose off half way.hehe..woke up at 6.15 am today and off to school. today lesson end at 11am. wEeEeEe~~!!

After school, will be meeting boyf and cousin together wif haziq for BOWLING!!wEeEhOo!!~~ :D

UPDATE AGAIN SOON!
gonna take a short nap for a while.hehe

chalos!

2009-10-21T13:32:00.000+08:00

hello!=)

im back after missing in blogging for a week.hee! so much happen and i dont wish to say it here. let it be between me and allah:)

school's been open for two weeks but i've only been going for two days!hahaha.. my 1st day in school was on thursday(151009). everythings seem so sucks! was caught by DM for wearing slippers the 1st thing i step in the school gate,so name was taken -_- , class room aircon break down and there's only 3 fans in the room. mcm siak! and there's still a new timetable. lagi mcm siak! boleh botak sak kpale aku klau hari2 mcm gini!

2nd day of school was on monday(192009) went to school with rena. 1st lesson was ashish class,a tall,indian and a center parting hair man(belah pepek) haha.. after an 1hr break was miss MAY THET TIN, and just a
few minute i and my frens were called to see the section head! mcm siak!

yesterday was out with boyf and rena was still sick so we didnt attend school and same goes for today!!!HAHAHAAHAHAHA

CHALOS!!update again soon!

& i miss hanis,kak wati,fidaa and sue:)

miss my babyboy<3

2009-10-13T10:48:00.001+08:00

i so bored at home. didnt attend school yesterday as i just got well from my fever. and i dont think im going to school again today coz me very lazy.hoho! & rena's away in hong kong and no one will accomany me for my smoking breaks:''( i miss rena already! i miss her crap and her stupid bloody face!!hahahaha

& last,
AKU NAK JMPE LAKI AKU LAA!!!
:'(

2009-10-12T23:11:00.003+08:00

its been long since i last blog and tonight i feel like posting something out here as i felt so lonely right now with no one to talk to :'(

OH LOVE!

if you happen to read my post here. i really want you to know i really felt at this moment. ever since you stop your night work, u start drinking and been home late at night. i waited for you every night without fail just to makesure that u're home safely but since then i notice you stop everything u use to do with me. u seldom text or give me a call. u start giving me soo much excuses which i know sometimes its just a lie. in this way, u're hurting me:'(

i even ask for a break up but i couldnt bare to. what will i answer to my parents?how bout our planning?gone just like that? even after we tried settling things out, u still act weird towards me and u make me feel rejected. this is not how i picture it.i dont want this kinda relationship cause it really sucks. sometime i really wonders, do you really love me? and do u ever know what's the meaning of LOVE?

where were you when im down with fever? i was left all alone to bare this pain and only tears was with me. what do you mean when u said that my love is too strong? does that mean u cant accept it? or u dont deserve? c'mon! u want me soo much that a friend give in to you and is this what i deserve?

u've been changing soo much that u leave me confused in my position. asking myself, what should i do next? our relationship was once a complicated one, and once we share it to others, ppl just smile and said something for us to feel proud taht we make it this far but that's what they only see but have they see our fight? im only hoping for the best in us. but u keep making me tears and all i can do is to accept all this challange. i'm beganing to feel scared that u'll leave me 1 day.

I MISS THE OLD YOU!:'(

2009-10-03T22:06:00.000+08:00

went jln raye again today to ayah side. well, ayah has alot of relatives u see so we spent more time on ayah side than ibu side. ikhlil's with us today. sibok jek tu anak!hehe!!

mummy's girls:)

that's all!

im tired now. and going to bed soon:)

NYTES!

2009-10-02T09:24:00.000+08:00

honestly im getting lazy to post my dailies. and i think my blog's getting dusty here.so boring -_-
anyway,yesterday was ok ok to me. not so happy, not so sad.hehe..

was otw to aunt place when i saw kak wati on the bus!!!=DD soo happy after all these while,i havnt been meeting her :'( slack at tamp while waiting for kak diana came over from punggol. kak diana came, puff a stick and go our seperate ways. make my way to aunt place and she cook kuah satay with lontong!hmm,sedap nyee!!! :) after zuhor prayers, ibu,lil sis,aunt and myself leave the house and to the mall.. ibu shopping MELAMPAU!! yela, dpt GST money katekn.hee! ibu bought herself a new bag and a shoes which cost her more than $80!! and all she get me is a perfume.HMMmph!!

in the evening, another date with sofie. was walk then saw kak nana. dinner at sakae sushi :) after dinner, look for kak nana stuff and hanis text me for a meet up:) met hanis and she gave me a present. thankiu sis:) sofie keep asking me what do i wanna get for my bdae present and i thought of getting a bag but we search the whole mall but none was attractive in my eyes.hehe

& lastly i've decided,mayb we should just slack and get something to munch2.
and here's the pic.

the end!

thankiu lovers for everything!<3

2009-10-01T10:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME & ALYSHA<3

Gonna meet ibu for shopping and look for my present :)

& thankiu all for the wishes!love u all!

yesterday.

spongebob and a necklace was present to me from bf. thankiu baby!love you!=)

2009-09-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

ok best!! meet fida larling and sue klepez today!! bf paitao aku! best pe?! urgh!!

ni part slipper fida PUTUS!!hahaha

date with sue: meeting point, tampines interchange,small mac,at 2pm. sue was late by few minutes.hahas! as we walk,we talk and share. walk around the whole shopping mall, bought sushi,slack at a void deck,walk again and finally sue's off for her training.

next date with fidah: meeting point tampines MRT station, fidah jln terkedek2 so must wait. then to TM to look for her sandle. punye la fussy ni anak..smue tk berkenan.hahaha. da brape kali bertawaf (walk around) the mall pon tk tau. then talk over a donut at J-co , talk and laugh like nobody business.haha..rindu la ni anak! then train to simei NTUC( mcm tkde lain tempat gitu.haha) bought her mum's tissue and her sis chocolate and head back home.

haha!!not in details seyy!!hahaha

A GREAT DAY WITH A GOOD FRIENDS=)

2009-09-26T16:17:00.000+08:00

ibu cook ayam masak merah! YUM!! open house to all relatives ONLY!=)

yesterday.

theme was black:) raye visiting to nek biyah (grand aunt) place at hougang,and bf got lecture from her.haha.. kate nk tunang,mesti la kene lecture.hoho! chat for 2 hours or so then bus 87 back to my place and boyf had dinner there. after mahgrib boyf make a move while me,ayah and ibu went raye visiting to ayah siblings place. back at home i had flu and there's blood dripping from his nose.haish... sick sick sick!

2009-09-25T11:12:00.001+08:00

man will be coming over to fetch me for our hari raye visiting. we'll be going to my grand aunt place ONLY cause the rest wont be free today. and also i dont think i have the strength to move around to many places cause im not feeling well:'(

pictures taken yesterday.

nur hanis is loved by me:)

2009-09-24T10:11:00.004+08:00

gonna accompany hanis for check up today and most probably do abit of shopping! yeah!:)

anyway,its been awhile since i last post.hoho! busy beraye la kate kn!hahaas!

here the update:)

yesterday.

was ayah 50th birthday :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH! I LOVE YOU!<3

met rena early in the morning at 7 plus just as she finish her night shift. slack for awhile cause this girl have been saying she miss me for the pass few days!HAHAHAHAAH!!:P after slacking, bus 65 to fetch love over at his place to bring him to the doctor as love was having damn bloody high fever. but this particular matrep so leceh mcm nk mampos keep making me nag at him. sampai tekak aku pon naik kering. back at home, i was feeling sick too:(

tuesday.

was out with lil sis to find ayah birthday present in tampines. bought ayah a perfume cause we thought of getting him a wallet or a shirt but ibu said that ayah's a person who is very fussy with his stuff-_- bought dinner for family and saw fee and slack with him while lil sis head back home. * ADE CITE HOT HOT* i know u know eh fee.hehe*wink*

monday.

second day of raye. visiting to ibu side. i get more money compare from the 1st day.hoho! ibu sibilings all gather at mak long house than we went to each other house.setted!:) at night, ayah aunt came over with a bus!! house was so damn cramp! close house at 12am!! tired!

sunday.

selamat hari raye to all muslimin and musliman!

if i've done anything wrong to any of you, please forgive me even at my smallest sin.

atlast fasting month is over and now we get to celebrate hari raye. rendang and ketupat is a MUST during hari raye and ibu's rendang is the BEST!:D

went to ayah side 1st cause ayah have more relative. makcik,pakcik,atok,nenek,nanyi,sepupu,sedare and all the people connected:)

saturday.

last day of fasting and the whole family putting on a final touch up in the house. curtains up, kueh all on the table, sparkling floor, clear windows and a cosy place to be it. rumah ku, syurga ku.(my house,my heaven)

friday.

send nephew back to aunt place and buka there. help aunt to iron her bed sheet and i get $6.hahas! back at home, help ibu make the layang2 (kite-kite) hahaha!!

that's my update. sorry for not being so much in detail.

chalos!

2009-09-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

super tired oi! woke up at 8am today to keep ibu accompany till afternoon until everything's settle. 1st fetch aunt at tampines,then to geylang to get ayah a baju kurung,then to the wet market. next to bukit merah, uncle house to send all hs stuff and food for hari raye and next to yishun to fetch my nephew,ikhlil. send aunt back home then to aunt sam house to get ibu carpet and head back home. what's tiring for me is that i have to carry all the shopping bags!! mcm siak! penat giler joy!! but its ok,i cant bear to see ibu carry the heavy stuff. fiza anak yg baik kn?hee:)

back at home, had my shower and off to meet love :D told ibu that i wont be meeting him for this coming week and im gonna miss him and yeah!ibu let me off.SAYANG MAK!*grin* so slack with love around my area. smoke,eat,laugh,talk cork and kentot2!!!hahaha.. love send me home at 8pm before he head to work.thank you dear for spending time with me. ily!

count down: 2 day to hari raye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kecoh kecoh kecoh kecoh!!!

:DD

2009-09-16T21:00:00.000+08:00

met my dear gf,suhaila at noon. slack around my area. smoke and eat some snacks cause we cant fast.hehe.. chill and talk cork. damn! rindu sak tu anak! haha..we shared problem. well,that's us..we share our problem togeter,laugh together,eat together,cry together and scream together.haha.. btw, aku jealous sak!! sue got her hair perm for FREE!!! i repeat ehh, its FREE!!!!

anyway, we also talk bout our secondary life.kecoh kepe girl?haha.. slack till 6pm and it was raining heavily. ok ni part kecoh sikit la kann.. aku ni penakot ngan guroh and petih.hee! so when its raining heavy cats and dogs, i keep souting when i see a lighting or a thunder.hehe..sue pon mcm siak.penakot,sikit2 melatah.haha.. and we were freezing cold while we wait for sue bus.hoho!! kecoh sakk!! but it was FUN!! shall meet up again soon alright? i love you beb!

:)

p.s i miss my arwah atok and nenek. ayah wouldnt let me visit their grave.sedih!!!
al-fatehah!

2009-09-16T09:59:00.002+08:00

today.

GONNA CLEAN UP THE HOUSE FAST!!

yesterday.

went out with love together with his younger brother,acit and there's his gf,shafiqah and two of the mates, fee and haus :) i was in geylang for the whole damn bloody days sak! meet love at noon, walk around and acit only came at 4pm!! 3 hours of waiting.mcm siak!haha help acit look for his baju kurung,then his friend wants one too. after everyone's happy with their new baju, we slack for a while and head to Macdonald at payar lebar for buke. & i saw wan and his girl:) after buke,slack and smoke when acit and his gang decided to go for a karaoke session while me and love decided to slack. so bus 21 to my area and slack till 9.30pm. love send me home and ibu gave me some kueh:)

shot 1.

shot 2.

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shot 4.

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shot 3.

shot 4.

love.

acit.

that's all behbey! <3

2009-09-15T09:01:00.001+08:00

today.

im missing my stupid matrep!

& will be meeting him!! YAY-NESS!!

:D

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR GF,SUHAILA!
enjoy your 18 birthday dear!

yesterday.

Half a year with love. that's fast alright. anyway, we celebrate it real well i guess*grin* love fetch me then bus 65 to bugis and love bought himself 2 kemeja and 2 jeans. next to suntec and we watch G-Force.its a great movie! atleast its much more better than the movie UP*wink*

after movie, we walk to the central mall but i find it boring. not soo much to shop around there. so we bus 12 to tampines.ohh boy!!~ 1 hr plus going 2hr in the bus and my butt feels soo cramp. juboh koyak sak ddk lamer2! then we get my photo printed and next we get love lanyard and i bought 3 earing at $5!!! cheap cheap cheap!:DD

after all the walking, old chang kee for dinner,slack over my area,smoking session and love send me home:)

back at home,ibu's making chocolate cornflakes and so i bath and give them a helping hands.* give myself a pad on the back*hee!!

2009-09-13T20:59:00.001+08:00

just around the corner.

a busy today. early morning at 6am,followed ibu and ayah to geylang wet market and sis tag along. gosh! so smelly and dirty! i hate it! and something funny happen in the market today. well, im scared of big fish u see, then there's one uncle carrying a damn big fat fish,as if he's carrying a baby. he walk behind me and i notice that the fish head almost hit my arms and so i shout and grab hold of lil sis and stand behind ibu. k ni part mcm kelakar gitu, the uncle stop and look at me in his shock face. he must be thinking,why did this girl shout?. then he a said to ibu, ''aiyoo!! your daughter scared of big fish huh? never mind, i'll drop this fish and carry her instead''..ibu laugh and the uncle laugh at me.haha..kecoh ar lu girl!

next we went to our house wet market cause the vegetable in geylang was much more expensive. was on the way in the car when i sound ibu and said, ''mummy,fiza da ikot gi pasar kn?nak upah!''*grin* and i wasnt fasting today. then ayah took out $10 from his wallet and pass it to me. so i use that money and buy myself a Macdonald big breakfast,TAKE AWAY!.hehe *kening naik2*

back at home, i rape my big breakfast.ahaha. start off cleaning my bedroom. clean the windows,put up the curtains, sweep and mop the floor and the finishing touch will be my bed sheet but that shall wait:)

family except me when to visit cousin, bought soft drinks for raye and also bought 2nd bro casual wear. im all alone doing all the house work.damn tired la seyy!!

& ibu said that we're baking 1 type of kueh tonight. gosh! tired seyy!! tk bleh angkat joy!!... but its ok, helping hands make work easier *wink*

best of the best is that we had PIZZA for buke today :DD

thats all now. gonna continue with my chorus and head to bed!

goodnight readers!

2009-09-12T18:15:00.000+08:00

shall we doing again?:)

today so gerek seyy!! went to meet hanis and head to geylang to get her shirt change. next bus to tampines inter and get change to another bus and head over her place. our main plan is baking kueh raye!! yey yeh!=D
we bake MnM cookies!! yumyum!

& also her ibu pack me some cookies and aslo laksa to bring home! SUPER YUMMY!:) THANKIU SIS and ibu!:)

love's making problem again today! alamak! serious shit seyy!! fed-up already! how long can we go on if this continued? and having problem like this, im beginning to feel that he's falling apart from our relationship. he doesnt care anymore about me. so many questions playing in my mind right now. haizz..

i hope this is true: You guys are meant to last for eternity. Hang on to what you have because what you two have is the most rarest type of love out there.

baby, i hope you put your heart into our relationship cause i want nothing except you. i love you dear! trust me!* cross my heart*

2009-09-11T21:16:00.001+08:00

send nephew back to aunt place. send food to cousin place as he've been discharge.syukur alhamdullilah! he look much more better and i hope his medical report result will be negative. next bus to tampines inter to meet boyf. we're doing fine but still its too early to said anything now la kn..hmm..

hehe:P

spent my day with love slacking but i was sleeping.hehe..too tired!! havent get enough rest due to my problem.haix.. but im glad its all over now.thanx to all that have been lending me a pair of listening ears:)

and now i have 1 more problem, mcm cb sia!! there's something wrong with my camera hp.urgh! i wanted to change my hp to a new one but ibu wouldnt let me.sedih sakk!!:(

holiday plan: 1) find a job! 2) find a job 3) find a job!! =DD

i guess my hols will be a boring one la seyy! no job at the moment. and i'll be busy as hari raye is just around the corner and i've promise aunt sam to help her clean up her place and she have to take care of cousin. i've to clear up my own house.. and ibu said that she wanna make kueh raye. busy busy busy!!haix..

gonna sleep early today cause im going over hanis place to help her out with all the kuehs!!YAY-NESS!!=)

goodnite readers!

2009-09-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

im done with exam!gyeah! and i know that i'll fail for sure!hoho! in 15mins i've finish all the question and push away all the stuff and BUMB!amek kau! teros tido siol!!hahaha.. section A was MCQ and i guess i'll get less then 10 question right.haha.. exam ends at 12 noon. got a lift from zack and bad,rena tag along too:) thanx for the ride guyz! supposedly to meet boyf but i understand why he stood me up AGAIN!! he was awake for more than 24 hrs but less then 48 hrs. cian ni anak.. cant get to sleep so i decided to meet my baby,alisha. its been awhile.rindu oi!! she's 2mths old now.. so cute sak tu anak!!kidnap aru tau!hehe!!

aht text me today for a meet up but boyf was too tired and he'll be working his night shift tonight and i dont think he'll agree on leting me go out with aht alone.no way seyy.. cemburu kuat tu anak! mintak kene siku seven smpai dier nmpk bird2 fly2 aru dier diam.hehe.. so slck till 4pm before making my way back home.

& today i got the truth about aht ibu.. dont worry aht.. ibu akan sembuh ok? teruskn berdoa.

im going to bed right after ironing ayah clothes. tomorrow's a busy day for me..
aiyoo!!

happy holidays FLO8O4X!

;)

2009-09-10T06:31:00.000+08:00

a topic!

yesterday accompany sofie to the clinic for her back checkup,then drop tampines inter to meet up with love. mrt to VIVO, and here's where it started.............im not going to post the main topic of our argument but straight to the point ehh, perangai mcm siak!! he talk in his sarcastic way when he've already created a BIG MISTAKE!! babi kau! i end up crying like nobody business there and all he dont even bother to comfort me. he even "shoo" me away as if asking for a break up! ni anak really change sak! i accidently shoot out my mouth and said,"kau da lah potong jalan!!!"..oh oh!! im not supposed to said that but i was soo fucking pissed over what he did! and once he heard i said that, he give me that muke tak puas hati nye type ar.. but what do i care at that point of time, GI MAMPOS!! and he take the short cuts and said that he's sorry..fuck!! so easy!!! ok la..i go along with u ok? then shopping with him with my sours yet sweet face *grin* and i feel giddy at that time so i said lets not waste time and lets proceed to aunt place. so mrt to kallang to get himself change cause he got work at night den bus 23 to tampines. aunt invited him an open table buke. we acted nothing happen when we entered her house. boyf act well too. we watch ''white chicks'',joke around and laugh like there was nothing wrong. by doing this, aunt wont know a thing and that means ibu wont know a thing either. after buke,which i didnt even eat a thing except drink, aunt and sofie plan to go to geylang but i was no mood to steps in geylang. i ask boyf if he wount like me to slack with him a moment before going to work cause he keep silents ever since we steps out of the house and well there's something not right somewhere.he insisted on going to work early so we separate our ways. then i text rena to meet up cause i was going to bust into tears at any point of time. slack till 11 befre heading home. thank you girl for listening to my problem!!:')
back at home, lil sis was holding myself together. my leg was like jelly. my head are spinning, i eyes are tearing..at 12 midnight, boyf had his break hours so he called me and ask for a timeout. WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!?!?klakar kepe boy!?!? k la fine.lets time out... an hour later he want to cancel his timeout plan..i play along and lastly he text me all the good words and now i think he's feeling guilty over what he did. haisshh!!thats it i guess... :''(
& gosh! i didnt sleep a wink last night and i walk like a mad women now..MABOK SIOL!!!!!!!!!

anyway, i'll blog again soon!
bye la!!penat lerr..

chalos!~~

2009-09-09T06:53:00.000+08:00

3 day of not blogging and boy!!~~ i was soo lazy and i was away from com cause 1st brother was at home. & also i was busy cleaning up the house,my grand aunt place and yesterday i've just finish cleaning up sofie's bedroom! on monday i went to school to take miss may test and gave up half way so that means,''FAIL!!'' rena act so clever but i think she did just as bad as i am.haha.. tuesday was supposed to come to school to take miss ruhaizah test but rena over slept or should i said we both overslept.haha..which means we didnt attend school for our test. so that was why i make myself free to go over aunt place.

today.

gonna accompany sofie for her backbone checkup.so leceh seyy tu anak..hehe..and will be going over her place again or most probably gonna meet love to slack. rena called me yesterday and said miss ruhaizah would like to conduct her test today!! NARBEY! LANCAU! i cant even enjoy my 3 days of school break in peace!!

2009-09-05T21:52:00.000+08:00

went to geylang for love baju kurung. damn!he's soo leceh seyy!! & yesh!so we bought his baju kurung and its black at an affordable price,$60 ONLY!!! a new design some more, what's more can you ask for and it goes with a white samping :) after geylang, train to bugis to survey some stuff and head home:)

back at home, watch a Chinese drama and took my afternoon nap :)

after buka,this is what i do, blogging, facebook-ing and msn.
& i browse into someone profile in FB which make me kind pissed! k fine! i had enough! i never wanna care already alright? u go your way and i'll go mine! maybe you've change. you always remind me of not changing myself but you yourself did! hey!u've change alright! you may wanna act like you're the same old guy tha i know but who are you trying to kid?urgh!! do what you want alright?

anyway, i miss cousin already!! i wanna see him!!:''( so worried about him!!

2009-09-04T20:39:00.001+08:00

sorry.too wordy.

ibu told me bout cousin condition! i cant stop crying. he cant eat or drink, whats more talking. its a pity to see him like this. he keep vomiting out blood and i couldn't imagine how pain it was. ibu also told me that cousin keep throwing tantrum,well maybe he have wire and tubes all around his body and he cant move about and also he cant eat or drink. we kept crying hearing about his condition and we're hoping that he had a fast recovery :'( & i cried reading fadli(aht) blog..i can feel how he cope the pain of losing a grandfather, a mother in a critical condition, a father not in good health but fadli was strong..i envy seeing him.. org kate, ''badan kecik,jiwa kekuatan dan iman itu kuat.'' i cried so much that it remind me of atok and nenek.. it remind of how ayah go on with life when he just had his heart operated,how we family stay strong together through thick and thin:''( and how i fight myself with my illness for this 5 damn years! medicine non stop. up and down to see the doctors, appointment letters filling up my cupboard, needles here and there but i believe this is life and we have to be strong. therefor i wanna be there for him or she,whoever need someone to share their pain,i dont mind.. and fadli's the one i wanna be with..somehow i know he's somewhere in my heart which make me care for him still. he was there whenever i was down,and mayb its my turn now.insyaállah.

im missing the ppl close to my heart soo much that im tears!!
:''(

2009-09-04T06:10:00.000+08:00

i've just had my sahur. i had wedges and chicken cutlet!yumm!:) supposedly there's no class on friday but some of my friends including me have to come today to take our test. aiyaaa...this is what rena always said '' fail means fail laa'',haha!that stupid aunty, always cursing me upside down.haha..and YESH! im sure i'll do badly for this test cause i didnt revise due to cousin condition and things around me. and whats more, i still own miss ruhaizah my assignment 1 and a class test.oh oh!!:S fuck la!! who cares anyway?! if i fail my exam,i might just quit school rather than staying in that stupid school with all those pain in the ass kinda teacher! anyway, i'll try to do my test today within the 2hours that has been given and if i fail,SO BE IT:D i shall just take my leave and off to meet boyf! hehe!!

thursday. boyf wake me up when he reaches home from his night shift and hanis called for our meet up. meeting point in tampines MRT station and we make our way to boon lay. jauh kepe? to send over her maid's medicine. then we had no plan in mind,so we decided to bus 30 to bedok,so which means its a longer ride and we can talk and sleep longer.hurhur! supposedly to meet boyf but damn bloody hell, sipot belancan pnye budak!he PAITAO me ok!!! i repeat ehh,, boyf PAITAO me!!!urgh!!!and that's mean i get to spent more time with hanis. we slack around my area before going up to my place. we watch a movie called, ''the freedom writers'',its a good movie though. after movie,hanis decided to head back home before buka:)

& yesterday, i got to know that cousin is getting better. he kept saying that he wants to quickly be discharge cause he cant wait to eat all the delicious food.. im just glad that he's doing fine.

berkat doa seseorg itu akan di kabul allah.

2009-09-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

when i woke up from my afternoon nap, ibu told me that cousin is in the operation room after 7 hours had past.. so i waited and waited..just 10 mins before buka, ibu receive another call and my heart was beating fast, hoping to heard a good news from aunt and there...cousin's out of danger but still in operation ward. its to observe him and he's not allow to transfer in the ICU and i have no idea about so dont ask me alright? anyway,thankiu allah that everything's fine now.

& now, my mind's on my friends... im soo worried about him...he seem so different, he seem to be keeping something from me and he post in his FB about not living long! so what is this shit?!? after 3 damn long years of friendship and he's keeping something from me?!?! and this is my habit! i care about others more than my damn self..i dont give a bloody damn care to my health but im asking for his my family,love and friends safety!!!!!

:''( why am i feeling soo stress up these few days!?!?urgh!!

2009-09-02T06:22:00.002+08:00

i pray for cousin fast recovery and i pray that he live longer!! thats all i want now!!

:''(

i dont believe that cancer can take a lives. maybe it can but i believe cousin is a strong person. cousin is a big tall giant size guy and he's always protecting me. he go after those who bully me and find every details about my ex when he gets to know that im hurt. he use to tease me by pulling my hair and poke2 my stomach to make me go '' OPOCOT!'' hahaha.. thats him alright. he just love to irritated me soo much that can really make me go mad but still give me that stupid damn look. he's only 21 and he's the 1st cousin to go all through this shits! everyday and night i pray for his safety and everyone else. i just hope he'll be ok.
:''(

listen to my voice, look at my face, feel my hand and hear my pain.

2009-09-02T06:06:00.001+08:00

another sad news for me!!:''( 1 of my atok,father side had just pass away yesterday evening and today is the day where cousin will be push into the operation theater :''( and i'll be having 2 test today and my mind is all stress up.. ayah wont be going to work cause he'll be going for his check up, then to visit cousin and of cause will go for kenduri.. HAIZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!! :''( again, a lifes being taken..and now atok's gone:''( i keep thinking to myself, so much happen within A WEEK!!! everyday a new story.. sadly i have to accept all this that happen surround me. i've no idea how to explain it but for sure im so sad with all these things!!:''((

& now, i have to concentrate on my test. a stupid test which i dont think i can pass with all the things happening around me. urgh!! maybe i should just forget about the stupid test!! i care about the stupid test NO MORE!!

im soo in need for love right now. to hold me tight.

2009-09-01T06:30:00.000+08:00

morning ppl! as usual,i've just had my sahur:) and the 1st i do,was to check aht's blog. & sad to know that his grandfather have just passed away :''( it remind me of my own atok.. i suddenly have this feeling that i wanna go to atok grave to pay a visit. last week zack grandmother, and now aht grandfather. everyday ppl die..haizzz.. i pray for my family safety and every muslim ppl in this world especially my love ones:''( & tomorrow is the day!!i hope cousin will be fine!! enough already! i dont wish to lost another loves:(

stay strong aht... and i know you are. im always here whenever you need someone to talk to. i remember the time when we were so close,you were always there by my side to advice bout this and that and i said its my turn now to do you a good deeds. i hope to see the cheerful aht soon alright. just dekat kn diri dngn tuhan. insyaállah smue berjalan dngn lancar.amin.

anyway, i'll be going johor later... so i dont intend to sleep back cause i know i wont be able to wake up again.hee! and the sad thing is that i'll be leaving love for more than 5 hours i guess..not hearing his voice, wont be getting smses from him:'( i'll miss him and that's for sure!!

yesterday. went to school with rena for our phrase test and end up postpode it to wednesday. well,if we were to do yesterday,i dont think its fair for us cause the other group gets 3 hours to do it and we only get 1 HR 30 MINS!!!! no fair alright!! so lucky miss may agreed on letting us take the test on wednesday so that means, i have more time now to revise!hee:)
after school, love fetch me and we slack around my area to settle things out and oh boyy! i can really feel the heat! but alhamdullilah,everthing's OVER!!and because of our fight, i love him more!!hee:)

alright now,im gonna bath and get ready to go go go!
:)

goodbye readers!

2009-08-31T06:45:00.002+08:00

ku berdoa pada mu ya allah.

i've just had my sahur and i've nothing no do and i cant get back to sleep. i start of by revising my Dreamweaver thingy and followed by blogging:) 1st thing i saw was aht tag. so i hurried to his blog and there... a post about his mother which make my tears fall and which i know it really ache in anybody's heart if it were to me my own,his or her mother. in this ramadhan months, i notice alot had happen and ibu said that this is what allah give and we have to accept it with an open/sincerity heart. and if we do, there's always a reason behide it of why we have to go through this and that even if it really pain and hurt :'( and yes, i believe what ibu told me and somehow i also know that to know your strength is to go through it. and that is why children at a very young age,parents taught them how to fast in order to know are they ready to go through it. to suffer hunger thus feel the difficult life of the poor.

Fast like a living thing, have a body and a soul. The required abstinence from food, water, sexual relations etc, is the body of the fast: "piety" is its soul. If we are not striving to refine our character by fast, our fast will be a body without soul. Fast cleanses our body from impurities. Likewise, it must purify our hearts and minds from all impure thoughts improper desires and undisciplined sensations.

Holy Prophet Muhammad (saww) saw a woman, who was fasting on that day (not in Ramadan), abusing her girl-servant. Holy Prophet Muhammad (saww) admonished her and told her to break her fast. The woman protested: "But I am fasting today". Holy Prophet Muhammad (saww) said: "But was not your fast broken by the abuses you were hurling upon that poor girl?"

so to me,fasting is all about taking things slowly. steps by steps and we'll find a way with the help from allah. we pray to find the right path. all we need to do is to put ourselves near to allah.

to aht:

kuatkn la diri aht. kite smue hamba allah yg tk lepas da kesilapan. bnyk kn doa,bulan ramadhan ini bulan mulia, minta yg terbaik. ibu ayah aht perlukn berkat doa aht. fiza pon bnyk dugaan dlam bulan ramadhan ini. kite same2 doa ok? insyaállah.amin! :''(

2009-08-30T11:39:00.000+08:00

rain rain!!its raining!! sungguh syiok tdo!!hee:)
btw,i got something to post here!! guess what? SOMEONE ASK ME OUT ON A DATE!!!!!!!!!!!
oh ohh!!how how how???actually this guy is a friend of mine.we've been friend for 2 years now i guess and he thinks thats we should just meet up as there's more to catch up.oh boyy!!stress nyee aku!!

but there's no way im going out with another guy without boyf permission..fizaa kn good girl..nnt last2 aku yg kene maki berbakul bakul.hahah:)

anyway,lets just put that aside alright,my test will be tomorrow and i've no idea about Dreamweaver thingy. i dont know where to start. so most probably,im meeting rena this evening to do our self study.cheyy!!study seyy!!hee!!;)

& about love, he's busy earning money each day and night and that means he wont be thinking of me at all times.hee! he just want to save up and when its time....its time..get it? but oh well,thing can get out of shape sometimes laa..and im trying my very best to keep our problem matter low from my parents cause i dont want to get anymore lecture from them.so boring.hee!

gastric acting up soo bad that i cant fast so its such a WASTE!!urgh!! and ibu been nagging non stop!! and i find my life getting more boring so i dont blame readers if they find my blog boring.hurhur!

i'll stop here and i wanna go to slip!
hee!!

CHALOS!~~

2009-08-29T09:21:00.000+08:00

today.

i'll be cleaning up the house again..and im not sure if im meeting boyf or not.haizz..

anyway, ikhlil sleep over my place and boy!that bloody irritating toyol!!keep hiding my things and when u ask him,he'll simply said,''dont know?'' mcm siak seyy ni anak..hahaa...rilek fizaa,ko nga puase..hee!

ikhlil(toyol) & bro

yesterday.

went out together with boyf,hanis,sofie and haziq and supposedly ahn were with us but eventually he got shooting to do and its abit rushing for him. before meeting boyf at 5pm yesterday, me and hanis window shop in T1 and saw this stupid,bastard,mcm sial guy,her EX FARHAN!!!!!!!!!! mcm mintak kene rembat je!!

anyway, at 5pm meet boyf and make our way to KFC to book our seat for buka later. and yesh!actually yesterday SUCKS alot to me!! boyf start showing face and i got to know there's a girl pic in his hp and he said she's her adik angkat.wtf?!!? even i can just put any of my guy friend pic and simply said he's my abg angkat.mcm bodoh sak!!gasak ko la nk setia ke tknk..den gi jmpe parents aku ckap tknk tunang.SENANG AS ABC,123! then haziq and sofie came, den when its time to buke:)

so everything cork up until we reach pasir ris and i decided to cheer myself up by buying drinks for everybody, chocolate, balloon and pokka decks. we slack in the park and there...everyone started to talk and at least there's laugher and its not soo boring. haizz... slack till 10pm before making our way back home.

and *malu nye aku* SANDAL AKU PUTUS!!! thanks to haziq for lending me his big and giant nike slippers. hahaha!!

abg CD main balloon,and sofie da pandai la main..hee

im carrying haziq bagpack:)

thats love.

2009-08-28T10:22:00.007+08:00

Some people might say life sucks

or life is full of shit

While other people say life is beautiful

or life is full of surprises

I must say, I agree with all those

Life is whatever you think of it..and everything you think of it

Life is what you make it of it and what you say of it.

Life is about sadness

Life is about happiness

Life is about pain

Life is miserable

Life is about loss

Life is about smiling

Life is about crying

Life is about love

Life is about laughter

Life is about learning from your mistakes

Life is horrible

Life is dumb

Life is awesome

Life is depression

Life is tears

Life is sorrow

Life is anxiety

Life is Bullshit

Life stinks

Life sucks

I could go on and on and tell you all about life

But I'm not here to sort this out for you

cuz..

Life is all about you and how you treat it

You criticizes it...well, you're actually criticizing yourself

You like it, you hate it..well, its all up to you

Life is you so be careful how you describe it.

for cousin,

i know you'll be going through a major operation soon and you wasn't told that your illness was at the last stage and if you need to know,everyone's been crying a lot for you.we pray for your fast recovery and we want you suffer alone in this pain no more. seeing you like this really ache in everyone hearts but this is only the obstacles in life that you have to go through and you must not give up easily. i put on a fake smile and give you those lame jokes just to make you feel better. you can be quite pain in the ass but still,i love you!:''(

in this holy months,we pray for good things and wash away all the bad lucks away. and this is want we've been doing, pray for you:''(

ibu family side been feeling sad cause my cousin will be going for an operation in 4 more days.haizz... i keep thinking bout him.i really want to celebrate hari raye with him..im soo manje to him although he always disturb me.haiz....

anyway,i'll be meeting hanis soon.then boyf,sofie and haziq will meet us and followed by ahn.we're going buke together laa...but sadly to said, im back with my stomach problem..will be going for check up this weekend and i hope doctor wont transfer me to the hospital again!urgh!im sick and tired of seeing doctors and eating medicine!!oh boyy!!this is my life!!....

2009-08-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

since i have nothing to do at home,i went to aunt place and knowing more bout cousin really make my heart ache:( and doctor said that it's his last stage and there no hope left!!!BODOH NYE DOC!!die pikir dier sape!?!?!? but im sure everything's gonna be alright.

anyway, i break my fast at aunt place and boyf was invited:) we had spaghetti and nasi brayani.hee! but gastric was so bad that i vomit everything out:( and this cause ibu to worried sick about me and she insisted on bringing me for a check up..haizzz... after buke, we went to bazaar gelang to look for my and boyf baju:) and haziq(sofie bf) tag along..so kekek seyy tu anak.da mcm wak2 indon.hoho!!i find geylang this year was sooo boring!!anyway boyf and i will be wearing black AGAIN this year. -__- since our mind cant decide what colour to wear.hee!

2009-08-27T12:44:00.003+08:00

didnt attend school today as my leg cramps feels soo bad:( & also my gastric problem's back since i start fasting and this is NOT AN EXCUSE!! after fasting for 13 to 14 hours (i guess), i keep vomiting after my buka puase and my stomach dont feel good.ohh boyy!!:( and today ibu told me if i cannot tahan,im allow to break my fast but i shall just continue my fast... haizz... its boyf day off today and i dont think i'll be meeting him.

& WHEN WILL.............

[] cousin get well?:'(

[] love start giving his time to me?

[] i get to meet alisha?

[] azrul get his new line and pass his number to me?*kening naik naik*

[] rena stop scolding vulgarities?

[] i get a stable job?

[] i get to meet fida & sue?

[] i get well?

haizzzz.....

anyway,i found these weird picture. take a look yaww!!

ni case pemalas nak mampos!!

subahanállah

& there's more..........................deformed animals...

& ever heard a sexual restaurant?

that's a condom on his head..hahahah

ok done!

CHALOS!!~~

2009-08-26T18:12:00.001+08:00

a tiring day for me today in school. 1st lesson was SW/PE,mr Azlan class..ain,rena,manuela and myself volunteer ourselves to take part in the 42km thingy. so we were in the gym the whole lesson. i've completed my 2km and i need to finish up 40km more to get a Tee:) & i guess i'll be doing it next week and in this way, i'll burn all my fats!!hoho!! so it was tough for me alright, fasting and exercising at the same time but IMAN KU KUAT!!!hahaha...

after SW/PE was miss ruhaizah class..we revise more on assignment and on exam notes!waduh! stress aku!!

leave school at 3pm right after miss ruhaizah class as i was feeling giddy maybe because of exercising.. so rena and me make our way home. & im having leg cramp already!!urgh!!

btw, i dunno why my blog skins suck these few days!! please bare with it ok?dont like it,please leave.thankiu:)

time now: 6.08pm

im HUNGRY HUNGRY!! &im gonna help ibu with the cooking!

& gyeah! last but not least,
im missing every bits&parts of loves.hee~~!!

CHALOS!!~~

2009-08-25T21:02:00.000+08:00

school was ok today. take down alot of exams notes as test/exams are around the corner and for the past few terms i havent been paying attention in class and i guess this is the time i need to buckle up and get started. anyway,we did our cyberwellness presentation today and again we need to have more eye contacts.hee! but im soo glad that its OVER!!: D now i just have to concentrate more on exams and less on boyf.hehe...

& right now,im missing my baby soo much!!hani alisha!!!urgh!!!

WE ROLL ROLL ROLL ROLL & FALL!
:)

2009-08-24T11:50:00.000+08:00

today.

its raining and im still in my pajamas..hoho!wont be going to school today as my body's aching from all the work i did yesterday..ohh boyy!! i really need someone to massage my lower back for me:) & ok now, i have this friend,his name is ahn and i introduce him to hanis and i think they're getting on real well:D things are getting more spicier:) i just hope he change hanis life into a meaning full one.amin:)

yesterday.

ok go!yesterday was soo rabak la kan..cleaning the house for 2 days and i didn't get my afternoon nap:( i even went to ayah aunt house to help her out..so rabak kan kan kan? ibu and myslef got a new bed.hoho!mine was better that the previous one.now more comfortable.even boyf called i cant open my eyes.haha..imagine how comfortable is that.hehe..

2009-08-22T11:10:00.002+08:00

today.

SELAMAT BERPUASE KEPADE SMUE UMAT ISLAM!:)

yesterday.

ok best!yesterday was out with hanis,her ibu and her lil bro,adib:) we went to geylang to shop for our raye clothes.boyf was supposed to come along but he've just got home from his night shiff but he told me he could make it but just as i thought,he PAITAO me!!urgh! ok back to my story, 1st stop was joo chiat but none was attractive to me, so we walk to geylang new market to have lunch while we wait for the rain to stop.hanis bought 1 from there,its like a long dress,some sort like a long kebaye.its nice:) next we went to TKC,more clothes there and most of the price was like a bomb to me and above my budget.hoho! but i came across a malay traditional kebaye,very modern and its selling at only $100!!!!wow!!!cheap enough right?*kening naik naik*
after surveying the whole TKC,we make a move to the bazaar across the street.not much shop was open.so ibu and adib while me and hanis,we separated our ways.ibu took 67 back to tamp,and i took 21 back to bedok to get hanis a new hair cut:) & yesh!she turn our to be like ''LADY GAGA'',a singapore version!!hahaha..its a nice cut la..

then boyf called and said nenek gave my family food and he's on his way to my house to send it before meeting me.so after hanis hair cut,we slack one corner,then boyf came over,send hanis over to the bus stop then me and boyf make our way to slack.gosh!after a week of not meeting love, i miss him like crazy!!!hoho!!

&here's my princess pic..she's getting bigger and more chubby!!urgh!!GERAMM!!!

HANI ALISHA!:D

2009-08-20T20:34:00.000+08:00

today we submit our project work & it sucks!!a last minute job but overall i can see rena and kat trying their best to help me out in this mess!cause we simply had to redo it..thanks babes! anyway,im feeling abit low today.haizz...i shouldnt post it here coz i want to keep it confidential.
anyway,saturday will be our fasting months and i dont think i'll be meeting love at a moment :'( and tommorrow's love day off and i dont know if im meeting him or not and at the same time hanis ask me to accompany her for a hair cut.so who should i meet?

ok let post something to make me cheer up ok?:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVblWq3tDwY

MUST WATCH OK!!!
especially RENA!!!!U MUST WATCH!!THIS IS FOR YOU!!!!

CHALOS!!~~

2009-08-19T22:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 14 BIRTHDAY LIL SIS!

today went for SW/PE less than 5mins and class was dismiss.hoho! lunch than to miss ruhaizah lesson. take down alots of exam notes and also need to memorise all the label thingy.urgh!stress aku! and miss may project was in progress and we still have alot to do. and one of my group member is like making things hard for me.didnt do the tasks that we gave her! and rena just send me an e-mail that she send to her. its a copy paste job.wtf! she might as well get out from our group!!ok enough!let's stop this stress for a moment ok?

anyway, just got home from slacking with rena that crazy&irritating friend of mine at the reservoir. we had VODKA!!!WeEeE!!~~ after soooo long...hahaha..next will be on my birthday!! let's drink till we drop ok?hahaha. & ohh booyyy,im damn tiring!!no rest since i got home from school.haizz...

2009-08-18T19:48:00.001+08:00

im craving for it. slurp!~~

didn't attend for morning lesson as there was some fight with bro and i stood up all night!urgh!hate him!!!rena and anni text me early in the morning which make me awake and so i went for jogging. nk slim down beb!haha.
& supposedly to meet anni at 12pm at miss ruhaizah class for project but she was late and i end up sleeping on my sofa.haha...& rena only came at 3pm for cyber wellness, in fact we all came at 3!!!hahahaha...

anyway,im done with cyber wellness project.yeah-ness!!=D so 2 down and 1 more to go which is miss may project. btw, anni is our new group member for miss may project(: so there's 3 of us now and i really really hope we can finish it on time.*finger cross*

ok best!today wak gave me a super duper hard pinch!!!urgh!!got blueblack ok!!! that gundu head! how could he do this to me?!i thought we love each other?..HAHAHAHA!!!nah...just friends ok!=)

i guess that's all for today. gonna have plenty of rest after having a heavy migraine yesterday.haizz..
& oh yea! 4 more days to fasting months:)

CHALOS!!~~

*missing love*

2009-08-17T21:34:00.000+08:00

i got proof that rena always pointing middle finger!haha

school was ok today. today was HELL!!that stupid rena.always making me laugh my heart out even when it comes to her LAMES jokes of all.stupid rena!hahaha!:P
btw,i learn something in miss ruhaizah class today.hoho!its about label thingy.
Please Do Not Throw Singapore Passport Away. i guess only infocom student know what it means.haha.
had a 2 hour break,me and rena slack around the neighbourhood.mendak siol!!-_-

next we had CAH lesson with miss may but we were doing our project and i hope we can finish it by this thursday.
& also we had a revision in the a AVA room today with other 2 class cause mr thomas no longer teach so there's no replacement yet. & im glad to see ZACK today!!gosh!!MISS HIM MCM NK MATI SEYY!!hurhur!=DD & there was angeline, rena favourite gf!hahahaha!! she was so fucking irritating and she had this funny socks on and she said that it cost her below $100!!stupid right? she kinda ''world'' uh.. & she also had her hair perm which is so HOT & CRISPY which make me and rena laugh like makcik dier peh seluar dlam.hahaha.

ok best! lesson ends at 4pm and rena send me home in a cab.thanks partner!:)

back at home,ibu complain that her back keep aching and its not just today but for the past few days.im getting worried and i told her to go for a checkup but bloody hell,DEGIL NAK MAMPOS!!urgh! so i massage it for her with some oil,after an hour or so,she said it was better. & i did the cooking today:) i cook beef rendang and ibu said it was POWER!!yeah!!*eyebrown up up*

alright peep!gonna sleep early!
goodnight!

CHALOS!~~

&im missing love.

2009-08-17T06:10:00.002+08:00

today.

[time showing: 6.06am]
i cant get to sleep and i decided to touch on abit on my project! class start at 9am.so i think i'll just slack,blog and do project to keep me busy.
=)

Sunday.

Yesterday was my tiring day i must say. woke up at 8am to get ready for my religion class.sit with nenek(boyf grandma) & ibu keep laughing and talking with cik som.bloody hell,soo kecoh!what will nenek be thinking?haizz..

after religion class,we drive cik som to geylang & make our way to afganistan to get my hari raya clothes change cause on saturday night,my family,boyf& mak yah did shopping and last minutes i decided that its not very nice.hoho!!so i'll be doing my own shooping with boyf soon!=)

then we make our way back home & less than an hour,rena gave me a call and ask to meet in 30minutes time!!urgh!i didnt get my rest!!so meet rena around her area for our project and let me tell u this,we did it within a day!!!i repeat ehh...A DAY!!!....well,i must say that we're totally AWSOME!!weEHoO!!~~ after project,we grab some snacks and slack at the reservoir and along the way rena was talking CRAP!!OMG!i cant believe i have her as my friends.SWAY ar!!!hahahahaha!!!we slack till 8.30 before heading home and at that moment of time,we really had a good talk and its a place to chill... =)

p.s i admit rena is the best!hahaha

CHALOS!~~

2009-08-15T14:33:00.004+08:00

Today.

treat ayah,ibu and lil sis to breakfast.ayah standard timing going for breakfast is at 7AM!!!so i woke up at 6.30,shower and pray before leaving the house. we all had thosai at velu restaurant. after breakfast,lil sis make her way to school for some program while i,ibu and ayah went to the WET MARKET!! i guess its my second times.hoho!not soo sure:P back at home, we split chores. ayah will do the clothing, ibu with her cook and as for me,i settle the 3 rooms and 1 hall.i sweep and mop:) after 2 hours of cleaning, i was soo exhausted with all the cleaning.

Friday.

yesterday was my 5 months anniversary with love and we really spent our day well :) i cook macaroni cause boyf want to taste my cooking.hoho!

woke up at 7.30am and start with my cooking then went to boyf place to give his the macaroni and guess what? I GOT PASS from him!!that means,i can make a good chef!hoho! then we leave his place and make our way to aunt sam house to gave her my macaroni and we bought rojak keling for her and at the same time doing visiting(: its a good deed i guess to cook for someone and visit when they're not feeling well.

30-40mins past and we decided to make a move. so when to TM, had SWENSEN for lunch. sofie & her mom join us too:) so we spilt the bills. after lunch,we catch a movie, ''UP''. its funny but a little bit boring to me.hehe!

after movie we make our way back home but decided to slack for an hour. boyf send me infront of my door steps and ibu invite him in. so they chat chat chat till 9 plus before boyf take his leave.

2009-08-13T15:11:00.003+08:00

its my presentation day today and i think me and rena did it quite well as Mr ding gave us his comment on our presentation but its just that we need to have more confident and do more of eye contact:)

so im left with 2 project that is cyberwellness and miss may project.
im not in class having Internet fundamentals lesson and we're trying to finish it if possible or probably do it half way;)

enough about school.its boyf day off today and i wont be meeting him cause school ends late today and he's busy sleeping at home.

ok go!i got to rush miss may project now..will blog again when i get home.i guess.

CHALOS!!~~

2009-08-12T18:44:00.002+08:00

school was super goooodd(:
i did my practical test today and i find it quite easy and from the look of miss ruhaizah face,it tells me that im gonna pass this test!YEA!=DD
after test,me and rena make our way home and let me share with you bout this girl.ok go..here it goes..she's sweet yet irritating,she's funny yet lame,she's smart but can be stupid at times...but on a seconds thought,she can be realllly stupid.hoho!! on our way back home,we really had a great laugh over stupid jokes and also bout some stuff.HAHAHAHA!!so yea,itu la dier.kisah si rena belo:) hoho!

& boyf came over around 11am for his MP3 songs.leave home at 1 plus and went to ubi POSB bank to get the bank stamp for my giro form and i make my new GO card(: & also i was told that i can only retrieve my money in two week or maybe it would take a month!!!urgh!!just thought of doing some shopping!!:( and at that point of time,i almost shed a tears in front of boyf cause he said some harsh words that me break into pieces *sob sob* meet rena on the bus and i was trying real hard to smile and control my tears so it wouldn't drop.gosh!!but i make it through till we alight the bus and boyf make his way back home on his own.but heyyo!im'ma strong girl ok?:DD

i guess thats it for today.gonna have my dinner:)

CHALOS!~~

2009-08-12T09:51:00.004+08:00

gyeah! k best! yesterday I've completed my lifeskills project. 1 down and 2 more to go!=D

miss may project has been done half way with my research and we need to do a web page for it. its some sort like online shopping,so yea,me and rena are working on it:) & cyberwellness project had just been discuss yesterday and we plan to meet uP during the weekends to finish it.

we seem to be SLACKING,but actually we're WORKING!=))

so yesterday lesson supposedly to end at 6pm but rena and give our own excuse to get off early at 5pm..1 hr early is better that staying till 6.haha!

&the good news of the day yesterday, miss may gave me a letter!!& its my reward money oi!!!SUNGGUH BEST!!!org kaya baru!!hoho!!=P

anyway,watch singapore idol yesterday and erwin was on TV!!so i text him but i was told off!!:'( kinda hurt me alot i must said. i cant believe that he said those harsh words to me. we were so close in the past. he was like soo crazy over me that even when he's attached he said that he still wants me to be his gf but too bad im attached.so we lost contacts for 5 months or so and yesterday he told me off that we are friends no more!!!:'(

BEEEPPPP!!!! K STOP!! as for today,i didnt attend SW lesson cause rena told me not to.hahaha! i shouldn't keep her as a friend in the first place.always teaching me bad things!HAHAHAHA!!=P

& there's test today at 3pm and i haven't even learn a thing!!!!urgh!!mati la saye!!! tkpe,kite bnyk doa,nnt tuhan tolong=)

meeting love before going to school!=)

CHALOS!!~~

2009-08-11T09:11:00.003+08:00

ok go! i was awake by ayah for my sahur(fasting) but im not sure if i'll make through a clean one cause i'll be going to school later and meeting rena will make my mouth shoot every vulgarities that ppl don't even heard of.hahaha

anyway, boyf wake me up at 8.30am when he's on his way home after his night shiff and this part da kurang ajar,he purposely said that he's having chocolate,drinking cold drinks and irritated me with all his stupid words. so everything seem fine,when he said,''if u're fasting,cannot flirt in school,cannot see guys'' & i go,''ehh?ok..and fyi,i dont flirt in school ok!!guys flirt with me ok!!'' and boyf seem like pissed by me and started this stupid fight.mcm bodoh sakk! & i got even pissed,so i hang up the fone!urgh!

i was thinking,doesn't he get tired off this game?

ok enough now, im gonna focus on my project and stop thinking bout love a this moment. =) so yea,rena's coming with her lappy and i think this time we shall get started with all kinds of project that have been given to us.

&oh yea! kak wati gave me a call this morning and i was told that seh had an ACCIDENT!!!i repeat ehh, ACCIDENT LA OI!! and from the way she said,it sound like a serious one. and the worst thing is that its on ex boyf(fir) bike!!urgh!!i've told him a hundred times about riding on road.gasak ko la nak,asal ko bahagia,pandai jage diri sudah ehh..& i pity uncle(kak wati boss) ,who need to attend the shop alone and no one's helping and i wont have the time due to end years school project and i even plan to help out during fasting months was CANCEL because of school!URGH!bingit!! i just hope my school schedule wont be too pack during that month.

anyway,i hope kak wati heal soon and fir learn his mistake when on the road. PEACE ;)

& now gonna bath and get ready for school & actually,im already LATE!!school starts at 8am!!HOHO!!=))

2009-08-10T11:25:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY TO NUR HANIS!!

may allah bless you with good health and a good fortune!

''cheyy!!da 18 la dier!! da kakak2 la kire kn? *kening naik2*hehe:P''

ok best! it has been raining since morning and its really cold and everyone in my family members sleep like a log especially 2nd bro..maybe bcos he was back home late yesterday from watching the firework.semangat SINGAPORE katekn.hoho!! &probaly we'll just stay at home as there's alot of show showing today(: & i'll be helping ibu with the house chores today.

ok go!this typical matrep you see above is my boyf and his name is sulaiman and man for short.

let me just post something here and if you're not interested,it doesn't bother me cause i post what i like.get it? he's changing i must said but im not too sure.ermm,or maybe im just being paranoid but the way he talk shows that im right. it started when we went out to celebrate hanis&lil sis advance birthday, he don't talk much since we got home. in hanis&lil sis present,he said that its not nice to kiss here and there,ok i understand laa..but back at home i expect some good and comfort words from him but mampos!!dier teros tido!!urgh!

and the next day which is yesterday, he totally pissed me off!i repeat ehh, HE PISSED ME OFF!! we were on the fone but he wasn't talking and when i ask, why are you soo quite?he said,''nothing to talk la b''..tu part darah aku naik,i tighten up my screw,louder up my voice and said,'''THEN WHY BOTHER TO CALL!?!?!?!''den he just keep quite mcm kutu babi yg tk gerak.grr!! i hung up the fone rudely after saying,i'll call you back later!.

so that was yesterday and today....lagi terok!!he text me saying that he's home from his night shiff and so i called him and he give me this stupid voice tone mcm nk maki berbakul bakul sakk!!i got piss again and i hung up!!hoho!!mampos kau!

so if you were me,what will you do?talk to him or carry on with what you're doing?=DD

i guess i'll carry on with what i'm doing,mcm gerek plak letak2 fone!haasss!!

so that's it,thnx for reading!hoho!!

CHALOS!~~

2009-08-09T20:30:00.006+08:00

a nice sunday.spent some quality times with family and aunts. ibu make roti kirai today and we invited aunt sam and mak yah to come over. it's been some times since i met aunt sam. and recently she've been not feeling well and so much had happen to her family:''( but she's a strong women. we had a long talk bout love. everybody wants to get to know bout love and wish to see him.hurhur! i bet they have alot to question him..padan muke kau!& we also had our karaoke session.soo gerek but ayah spoil my mood when he sings the M. daud kilau.the datok gelek.hoho!

i dont like the way he dance.YUCKS!

love's working night shiff today and he spent his time at home and probably meeting abg man and leny at 8pm.& gosh! love's getting irritating now a days!mcm nk smack je muke dier..haas!

anyway, i've been think bout my lifeskill and other project.i dont have much time left.i hope i can focus my mind on it and not other thing cause i pity rena cause she have to delay it all because of me. sorry babe.

P.S ibu said that boyf look like anwar zain when he smile.hoho!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ABG MAN

HAPPY 4YRS WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO ABG MAN& LENY!!

gonna bed early cause i've been helping ibu with the house chorus since morning and my leg's starting to shake like jelly.hoho! goodnight folks!

last but not least.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

2009-08-08T21:44:00.032+08:00

TODAY SUPER GEREK SIOL!!

meet hanis together with lil sis at tampines after paying house bills,bus 23 to kallang to fetch love den bus 65 to orchard. we played arcade and have dinner at beach road and slack at kallangriver side.but we really enjoyed ourselve.check out the pics!too tired to post.hoho!!

kiteorg main hindustan,kuch kuch ho ta hei.haha

i love her to bits!

9 yrs & still strong!

sisters!<3

kite ''minah rempit''!hoho!

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i had spaghetti.

nasi ayam penyet!

abg & adik!

lil sis<3

THAT'S ALL PEEPS!

& goodnight!:)

i love boyf more today than yesterday!

2009-08-07T09:35:00.002+08:00

MY BLOG SKIN SUCKS!!URGH!!

2009-08-07T09:19:00.006+08:00

im meeting love to shop my new clothes and maybe will be visiting cousin.gonna bath now!

this is love.

yesterday.

i got to know bout my cousin illness and everone's felt sad about it.my aunt is soo stress up with all his medical bills and doctor said he need to go for another operation to throw away some parts of the cells or something that im not soo sure about it and if he dont,the cancer may spread his whole body and there's no way to save him:''( get well soon cousin!i know you're strong!

meet love to shop his stuff and my mind was still on cousin:( went to bugis for his pants and slippers and suntec for his bag. head back home cause i was feeling giddy and in no mood.haizz..

i believe this is bits and parts of life where no one is perfect.

2009-08-05T16:53:00.003+08:00

didnt attend school today and yea!i know my attendance is getting from bad to worst!!urgh! meet up sofie at compass point,accompany her in the library,after 2 hours of surfing the net,we make our way to tampines,$1.80 chicken rice for lunch and head back home.hoho!=P

love,

its a great feeling to fall in love with you and i know i wont regret it. still going strong and i dont wish all our effort to go down the drain. sometimes words just shoot out from our mouth but breaking up is not the solution and i dont wish to lose you cause i love you in every bits!

&I WANT TO GO SHOPPING!!!

2009-08-04T14:51:00.004+08:00

lesson start at 8am today and i woke up at 8 when rena gave me a call.miss may was on MC and my migraine act up since yesterday when having a fight with love.aiyoo!!mabok sak kpale..so i make my way back home to have my rest.just woke up and ibu's taking bout love AGAIN!!urgh!

chat with suhaila and i got to know that her grandfather was admitted in the hospital and im really sad to heard bout the news.i hope he get well soon.be strong sis!pray hard ok?

yesterday. didnt attend school cause my body's aching all over cause i was standing the whole day at work. and its love day off, so fetch love and bus 23 to tampines to visit my little princess.hurhur!!she's getting bigger! bushuk la muke dier..im too lazy to upload the pic cause its in my hp.hoho..then head to TM,CS and T1 to look for boyf shoes and i bought myslef a new perfume,survey lil sis present and head back home.

sunday. worst job that i've ever did!!! KENDARAT!!(help out in a wedding occasion) musibot!rabak giler kepe?! i guess thats my first and the last ar!!tk sanggop joy!bleh mati oi! a 1500 package!!but seem more to me. i get $50 for working 10am-8pm.not worth right? after work,cab to kallang with abg man and leny.ayah was chilling with love at the coffee shop,having kopi.biase la,ayah jmpe bakal menantu.hoho!

saturday. went to work with kak wati and my job is to sell the kurma(dates). after work chill to a place which i dont think i can post it here.klau dier bace,mati la saye.hurhur!dont worry,its a safe place laa.. after chilling,head back home,at 10pm and love was blowing his top.urgh!malas aku nk gadoh2..so that's it lor..at night,kite perang!!

our love is getting stronger each and everyday.

i love you baby!

2009-07-31T22:25:00.003+08:00

the verdict!

read my previous post!its about marriage right right right?

ok go!i've talk to ibu and ayah bout it and they disagree me in getting married next yr cause its too early for me and i think so to but they agreed in getting us engaged first.hurhur! must be shocked right? so yea!that's it!im getting engaged by next yr,insya'allah or probably wait till 2yr and get married straight.hee:)

anyway,i'll be working with kak wati tmr!gyeah!!=DD

so i guess i'll sleep right after talking with love.

& get well soon hanis! we'll meet up soon ok ok ok?rindu la babe!:)

GOODNIGHT PEEPS!

me in love with that stupid matrep,sulaiman;)

2009-07-31T15:05:00.003+08:00

am i ready?

its friday and i've no lesson every friday.baik kepe?hee..i miss love soo much so i ask him to come over my area;) he make his way right after his night shiff and 1st thing i saw his face i said, ''hubby sleepy ehh?'' and he said, ''DUHH!!i keje mlm seyy b''(im working night shiff seyy b) hahaaha..da pandai sak ni anak bbl mcm minah rep.hoho! we had our breakfast.love had nasi rawan & i had my big breakfast,ade class sikit.haha! i've just reach home from sending love and here i am blogging.hee!

anyway, yesterday was otf with love and he suggested that we bring our marriage planning forward and he plan it next year,in April so that's mean i left with 8 months of being in single life yet attached before im so called to be a ''wife''!!!!get it? 8 MONTHS!!! cause love said that by next year his saving should be enough,but im still schooling seyy!!kiwak! da mentel ar ni anak.asyik pikir kawin jek!hahaha..anyway,im gonna discuss it with my parents tonight and see what their response.hehe.. wish me luck yaww!!;D

ohh mama! saya mahu kawin,dngn anak raja!!

hohohoho!xP

2009-07-30T20:48:00.003+08:00

today went for lifeskill lesson at noon and i thought there'll be presentation to be made but its postpone to next week.so there's still time for me to do some editing*kening naik naik* after lifeskill when home straight as im feeling abit giddy and sleepy cause i had some conflict with love yesterday night about some work thingy and i only slept at 5 am and was awake by a caller and its a wrong number!!urgh!

after soo long didnt meet up with kak wati,i decided to give her a call in the afternoon and she only call me back in the evening. so much to catch up with her. so i shall go clubbing with her.confirm gerek dok!!hee=) miss her soo much!<3

was otf with love few minutes ago and he's on his way to work. kesian laki aku,pagi petang siang mlm asyik keje jeek!!hee!!nampak sah bedek seyy fiza,padahal mlm jek.hehe.. anyway,i going to bed early today cause im still feeling abit giddy and my stomach hurt!grr!

good night ppl!

chalos!

2009-07-29T17:05:00.003+08:00

just got home from school.went for SW (P.E) and played pool today!!wEeE!!~~gerek pe?i guess the last time i played pool was 2 yrs ago. eugene played it too and fulomak!!''MAUT'' seyy dier main,smpai ade bunyi ''ke tak ke tuk'' haha..& today ain's soo kecoh sak,mulot mcm jubo spider seyy!!hohoho!! and i found out mon thet have change to become more wild.cheyy!!da pandai kau maki2 ehh?rembat kau aru tau...hahaha..babi sakk dier,ikot kn hati,aku hantar balik negeri dier.haha..anyway,mr thomas class sucks! so damn bored!! all i do was surfing the net while he explain bout PC numbers and stuff.

was otf with love a moment ago. siang plak dier bngn nari.hee..gosh!!miss him soo much seyy!!

he's getting irritating now a days.keep disturbing me bout ''sotong'' as he knows that i HATE it soo much!! sotong soo disgusting seyy with all the legs and kentot got black colour colour thing. *muke cramp* therefore i stop eating sotong ever since.hurhur!=P

i love my love very much and i would shower him with nothing except love.

& OH OH!!tomorrow's the day!! and i guess we have to stick with our plan A and go on with the powerpoint instead of the video presentation. im worried bout rena grandpa condition,although we always tease each other bout im really jealous of her having grandparents,but im happy that at least she gets her grandparents love=' )

ok go!!stop of being emo ehh fiza.haha..btw, fasting month's just around the corner with is 3 more weeks away!!! & im 2 months away before my birthday!!gyeah!=DD im gonna make sure i get something which i could keep it with me for as long as i live.wEeE~~ and i want to celebrate it with my budak2 degil,setan,gondol and irritating but yet GEREK!!hoho!=)

i going to bath now,dinner and call love soon!

chalos!

2009-07-29T09:11:00.003+08:00

so stress and pissed with my last minute project!!urgh!

tomorrow will be our presentation day and we've yet to complete it.

anyway,i'll be coming back to school today after soo long im absent from school.i bet rena miss me soo much!hohoho!=P but she wont be in school today cause she've something to attend & i wont be seeing her today=( & ohh yea, love call and text me early in the morning..very sweet sak dier msg..cair aku..hehe..i love that stupid matrep soo much la..hohoho!!and now he's at home sleeping like a babi after his night shiff.haha

&recently,ahn arab contact me.can you believe it,after 3 damn solid years and till now,he's still waiting.but im not to sure if its true la but nah,im not going to think soo much about it cause i dont want it to rot my relationship.im happy that he's still the same guy that i use to know.a great friend to hang around with and talk to=) gosh!!i miss those time seyy..

&i just remember something..fir(my ex) text me on monday,270709,the day he just begun his NS days. told love and parents about it and everyone keep asking me why did he text me?is it because that im back with him?HA-HA-HA!!*ketawe pakse* uat kekek kepe?as if he still want me?anyway,on that day itself he text to tell me that he've finish his NS.alhamdulillah laa..you can go and get a new life and settle down with someone you love. after he text me,i keep wondering,did i hate him or not?nah...hidop kat dunia ni mane bleh benci org.nnt tuhan marah:) i'll forgive & forget him.

& ok go,

i'll blog again soon alright?gonna bath and get ready for school!=)

i miss my baby(hani alysha),hanis,kak wati,fida,sue,fee & haffiq!!